“Because I swear to God, he was suggesting a threesome.”
“And?”
“Look, I’m not trying to star in a porn here. I just want to like the guy I like.”
“Which is who?”
Goddamnit. I hate that question. “Well, I like both of them.”
“Equally?
“It’s not exactly equally, but in terms of reciprocal feelings, it balances out.”
“Speak English.”
“I think Isaacreallylikes me, and I think I might have some buried feelings for him, butI’veopenly liked Deacon for a long time, and he’s kinda just starting to notice me like that.”
Samuel squints. “I’m still kinda hung up on the love confession from the park.”
“Yeah…” I sigh. “That was something. It really fucked with me to be honest.”
“You sure those feelings are buried?”
I stare at him but don’t answer. If I were a normal person and this were a normal situation, I’d be with Isaac right now, telling him what a fucking dream he is.
“Okay—it’s messy. You’re right,” Sam says. “But it’s kinda like you said, too. It balances itself out for now.”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean, like if you did go have theconversation, it doesn’t need to turn into anything. And if it does...” He shrugs.
“What?”
“You like them both, they like you. Seems like it could be hot.”
I cannot believe I’m hearing this. “It seems like anightmare. Have you ever had a threesome?”
“No.”
“Well, I have, and they’re not exactly love fests. Half of it is just watching and waiting for your turn.”
“Evan. Come on. We’ve all got a front side and a back side. Two hands apiece. There’s plenty to work with. And what’s wrong with watching?”
“I don’t want to watch.”
“Then don’t watch.”
“Duh, that’s why I’m here.”
“I meanparticipate,” Sam says.
“Okay, did I mention Deacon tops Isaac?”
Sam laughs. “No.”
“Please for the love of fucking God,don’ttell Calyx that.”
“I can’t make that promise. Also, what the fuck is wrong with bottoming?”
