We’re quiet for another minute while he doesn’t get out of the car. “Am I being selfish?” he asks.
“About what?”
“Am I putting myself in the middle of something I have no business being involved with?”
“In fairness, I’m the one being clingy here, and you were already in the middle.”
“I’m not a huge fan of being in the middle of anything, but that was some kiss. And I heard what you said,” he adds softly.
I try to smile. “I’m available whenever.”
“I’ll see you at nine.”
“See you then.”
He gets out, opens the door for Apollo, and a few seconds later, they’re inside the building, out of my sight. I leave just as confused about where I stand with him as I was when I got out of bed this morning.
21
DEACON
In terms of horny things I’ve done sober, seducing and blowing my roommate after having resisted any sexual thought about him prior to a few nights ago easily tops the list. I’ve been wired ever since I came on his ass, but he fell asleep fast.
I ended up lying there for a while, but I couldn’t sleep, so I got up and went back to my room.
While I’m working out this morning, I’m still thinking about his ass. There are so many things I didn’t get a chance to do with it.
I want to spank it. Bite it. Squeeze it. Eat it… Fuck, I want to eat it. I rub the back of my neck and tap out the Bach tune on my thigh after I rack my free weights. That’s when Evan comes in with Apollo, looking flushed from the cold and—I don’t know what to call it.Off.Flustered?
“Hey,” I say. “Sorry. I couldn’t sleep last night, and I didn’t want to keep you up.”
He squints at me, and then I guess it clicks because he waves his hand dismissively. “No, it’s fine. I just talked to Isaac. It was weird.”
“Oh.” I’m surprised how interested I am in what they talked about. Anxious, too, I think.
“Yeah, in a rare twist, he doesn’t want to pick a lane. Go figure.”
“Is he usually more decisive?” I ask.
Evan’s expression is flat. Unreadable. At least for me. “He’sverydecisive. Which means he genuinely thinks he can date two roommates at the same time, and that we’ll all be fine with it.”
“Did yousayyou wanted to date him?”
“Like I said, it got weird.”
“You can tell me what happened,” I say. “He’s been really open about how he feels about you.”
This causes Evan to scowl. “And that doesn’t bother you?”
“It hasn’t changed anything. Not yet.”
“Did last night change anything?” he asks.
“I haven’t told him about last night.”
“I mean, did it change anything for you?
“I guess in a way. I see where he’s coming from. Wanting to see two guys at the same time.”
