“I love you, Havoc,” I said, something I had been holding for years.
He looked at me and smiled sweetly.
“I love you too, Trini. I’ll call you tomorrow, okay?”
My heart felt like it was going to burst out of my chest until he stepped forward and placed a kiss on my forehead. The type of kiss a father would give to his daughter or a brother to his sister. Not like a lover.
He then waved and closed the door. My body shuddered with the sound of the door clicking.
I stood there completely dumbfounded and feeling rejected. He loved me too—just not in the way I wanted him to.
Turning on my feet, I rushed for the elevator. My soul was crushed. In place of love, all I could feel was pain.
All types of thoughts were rushing through my mind as I hopped in my car and sped out of there. My head was on a swivelas I prayed that I saw that girl because she was gonna tell me who the fuck she was and most importantly, where she came from!
It was so not like Makari to hide someone from me. But it was clear to see that if I hadn’t shown up today, he was never going to tell me about her. Why? Did he plan on keeping this a secret from me?
He was never known to be out there just fucking on females like that, because he didn’t trust people easily, so how was it that this girl could get close to him?
How the fuck did they meet?
Was this something new, or had this been going on for some time? The not knowing was killing me and breaking my heart to know she had him. Had him in a way I didn’t. He’d allowed her to touch him in an intimate way. In a way he never allowed Ocean.
I knew he hadn’t even kissed his so-called fiancée because, as I said, he told me everything! Yet, he didn’t even tell me that he met someone else. He was that comfortable with her to have her in his condo like that. A place I thought he only allowed me.
Ocean couldn’t be in his shit more than ten minutes before he was looking for an excuse to make her leave. But me, he would allow me to be there for hours and sometimes even days at a time. Had he opened himself up to her in that way too?
I felt a pain hit me in my chest, and I willed myself not to cry. I’d told myself that he probably didn’t sleep with Ocean because he was saving himself for someone more meaningful. Someone like me. I was just waiting on him to finally see that the perfect woman for him had been right in front of his face this whole time. But he didn’t see me—he saw her.
“Shit!” I screamed and punched my steering wheel. I didn’t even know where the hell I was driving to. That was just how off my game this situation had me.
I suddenly slammed on my brakes when I saw her across the street. This had to be God.
Quickly pulling over, I snatched my keys out of the ignition and hopped out of my car. She was too busy talking to her friend to notice me, but she stopped when her friend made my presence known.
She turned to look up at me. As I stared down at her, I couldn’t see why she thought Havoc would be interested in her. If this was a competition, I knew that I already won because she didn’t look like me.
The girl frowned at me, rolled her eyes, and asked, “Can I help you, Trini?”
“No, but I can help you, Ocean.”
Fuck it, if I couldn’t have Havoc, neither could this unknown bitch!
Ocean frowned.
“Help me with what?”
“By getting some bitch away from Havoc,” I said and smirked.
Ocean’s face changed, and she slowly stood to her feet.
“What are you talking about?”
“There’s someone I’ve seen trying to get her claws into Havoc. I thought I should let you know.”
She frowned and asked, “How do you know?”
“Because I just saw her leave his condo,” I admitted.
