"This might hurt at first," I warn her. "I'll go as slow as you need. You tell me if it's too much."
I blow out a long breath, knowing this is going to be a test of my own self-control. To keep it easy, keep it slow.
But this isn’t about me.
I line up my hard cock at her entrance, one hand braced beside her. "Look at me."
She does, those dark eyes locked on mine.
I begin to push my cock inside her, achingly slow.
She gasps at the unfamiliar sensation, her body instinctively tensing. Even after fingering her, I'm stretching her, filling her in ways she's never experienced. I stop immediately, barely inside her.
"Too much?"
"No. Keep going. Slow."
I push deeper, inch by careful inch, watching her face for any sign of real pain. She's so unbelievably tight around me, her body slowly adjusting to accommodate me. When I encounter resistance, I pause.
"Breathe," I tell her. "I'm going to go a bit deeper now."
"Okay." Her hands grip my shoulders. "Do it."
I push fully inside her and hold absolutely still, every muscle drawn taut as wire. She cries out—pain mixed with something else—and I’m ready to pull back when she shakes her head.
“Fuck!I’m sorry. We can stop.”
"No, I'm okay," she says before I can ask. "Just... give me a second."
I wait, every muscle in my body tense with the effort of not moving. Sweat is dripping off my forehead from holding back. She's impossibly tight around me, her body pulsing as it adjusts. After a moment, she shifts her hips experimentally.
"You can move. Just... slow."
I rock out and back in, gentle, steady, a cadence she can memorize and control. Nothing punishing. Nothing that would confuse her body into bracing. Only a rhythm that teaches her again and again: you are safe, you are wanted, you are in charge.
"Am I hurting you?" I ask, needing to know she's still with me.
"No, it feels good." She grabs my ass with both hands, pulling me deeper. "I want more."
I increase the pace slightly, still careful but less tentative. Her breathing changes, becomes more ragged, more desperate. She's chasing sensation now instead of fighting memory.
"That's it," I murmur. "Just feel. Just be here with me."
"I'm here. God, I'm so here."
I can feel her building toward release again, her body tightening around me, her nails digging into my shoulders. I shift my angle slightly, and she gasps.
"There," she breathes. "Right there."
I hold that angle, watching pleasure wipe the last shadows from her face. When she breaks this time, eyes locked on mine, myname on her lips, it drags me over the edge with her. I come with a loud roar, fighting the need to push deeper into her and the need to hold back.
Afterwards, I hold her carefully, both of us breathing hard, both of us processing what just happened. She's quiet for a long moment, and I'm terrified I've fucked this up somehow, taken advantage, made everything worse.
Then she speaks, her voice soft but certain. “Thank you,” she whispers.
“For what?”
“For giving me that. For helping me take it back. For being careful with me.”
