“It’s not a mask,” he repeats more carefully. “It’s how I have survived.How I survive.And I need it, okay? All my life I have needed to perform in order to avoid pain. I have been controlled and owned without the right to my own identity. But the worst were the twins who were my instructors. They twisted my pleasure of performing with their pleasure in giving pain. I don’t know how to divide the two anymore. So, it’s me now, yeah? Zero, just surviving. Do you understand? I know that I can be bloody annoying but I am choosing to take what I’ve endured and make it something fun — that I can take pleasure in too — or it will fucking ruin me.”
A tear chases down my cheek. “You be whoever you need or want to be. I get it now. And I love you.”
Zero’s gaze snaps to mine. “I admit that I’m this trashy mess and you say that you love me?”
My gaze hardens. “Don’t let Icarus hear you call yourself shit like that or youwillbe in trouble. And I was falling for you when I knew you as Immortal, but I’ve fallen in love with the Beta who is Zero. You’re everything to me; you could never be nothing.”
“I love you.” Zero crawls across the nest toward me, and I have never needed his touch so much. He cups my cheek,running his thumb to the corner of my eye like he can’t believe that I am real. “I bloody love you.”
“I’m here for you. Everything that happens will be your choice from now on. You have the control.”
I am relieved to see the twinkle return to Zero’s eyes, as he leans in to whisper against my lips, “What if I am turned on by the idea of giving up that control to you? I’m kinky. I accept that about myself. It’s a need not a…”
I push him back with a strength that takes him by surprise.
But then, I spent my childhood leaping from couches and playing the daring outlaw, rather than sedately learning typical Omega skills like sewing, aided by my dad.
I have a few tricks up my Omega sleeve.
By the way that Zero’s cock has risen to half-mast instantly, he is more than delighted to find them out.
My lips curl wickedly. “Lie back. It’s my turn to take control and spoil my Beta.”
“Yes, please.” Zero stretches out, looking up at me eagerly.
Wow, is it this easy to tame Zero? Icarus should be taking classes from me.
I lean down, kissing Zero gently. He lets me lead.
It’s so different to what I am used to with Icarus that I revel in the sensation.
I explore Zero’s lips, before feathering kisses down his jaw and neck. “Don’t move.”
To my delight, Zero instantly freezes, struggling to obey me and hold still, as I kiss all the way to his collarbone.
“Good Beta.” I risk glancing up at him from underneath my eyelashes.
Zero’s eyes dance with amusement, but he still preens from the praise.
I glance around me, trying to work out how to make this first experience as pleasurable as possible for Zero.
He appears to have had too much pain already in his life.
I snatch one of Lionzio’s ties, which has been added to the edge of the nest, and hold it up.
Lionzio smirks. “Tie me up any way you want, love.” I dangle it in front of his eyes, and he quirks his brow. “That works too.”
I knew that he would be a power bottom.
I wait a moment longer just to be certain that he’s okay with it, before I blindfold him with the tie. I am careful not to catch it on his silky hair or bind it too tight.
“What now?” Zero smiles, looking relaxed. His cock is fully hard and already leaking. “I’m at your service and ready to be ridden. I’m your perfect toy, love, even without a knot, I swear that I can make you see bloody stars.”
I bite my lip, glancing at his giant cock.
Tempting.
I want to spoil him, however, and as much as that would feel incredible, it would also feel too close to using him.
