"No." I let the word stand alone, hard as a stop sign. "Not mine."
"Then whose is it?" The anger in her eyes is like daylight.
"A good question," I say, because we are past comfort and into truth. "One I will answer after I see the device clean." I take out my phone, press a single button, and hold the receiver to my ear. "Study," I say when Misha answers. "Bring a field kit now. No talks."
I end the call and set the phone on the table. My hand wants to reach for her. "If I had known you were with child, I would have said it to you the moment I was sure. I would have said congratulations, and I would have said forgive me for the world I'm about to make safer. I did not know." My voice catches, and I make it plain.
Her mouth twists. "Your men have a transcript of the day I bought oranges. One of them comments on my scarf. Don't insult me by pretending you did not have the lab report."
"I'm not pretending," I say. "We have tails on threats. We don't tail you. Not like this." I let the consonants carry what my temper wants to carry for me. "There are a dozen ways to forge a log and make a house look guilty. You know that. Youare too intelligent to take proof from the hand of a stranger and call it gospel."
Her laugh is one breath that snags. "And I'm too intelligent to think a man who calls my steps sacred will not map them to keep his crown intact."
The flare in my chest climbs my throat and tastes like acid. "You think this is about a chair?" My voice doesn't rise. I let each word find its place. "You think I would take your face and lay it on that altar as a prop for a world that prizes power over vows and mistakes ambition for virtue?"
"I think you don't see me unless I'm in the line of your protection," she says. Then softer, more lethal, "I think you never looked at me as anything but duty."
That lands. I don't sway. I feel the cut, and I let it stay open because closing it would be cowardice. "Duty is what kept you alive before I had your mouth," I say. "Duty is what kept the staircase empty when you slipped past the cameras to carry boxes for people who wouldn't remember your name after the cookies were gone. Duty is the spine under every vow we rehearsed." I take a step toward her. "And now hear me. You are not only duty. You are the choice I make when there is no one watching."
"Then why did I learn about my child from a file hand-delivered by your enemy?" She lifts her chin. "Why did I have to taste fear alone in a tower older than both of us while you sat here polishing order?"
I look at the drive and hate it as I have rarely hated a thing. "Because someone wants you to think I'm that man," I say. "Because Sergei Vetrov is not a fighter of men. He is a sowerof rot. Because Aleksandr doesn't cross thresholds without being told which hinge is rusted."
She flinches at the name. I see it and keep going. "They want us to doubt before we bind, for the Vigil to fail before the lamps are lit."
"You are changing the subject," she says.
"I'm naming the field. On that field, I'm not the one who put your clinic file on a stick."
"Fine," she says, and the syllable lands like a ring on stone. "So I will ask the simpler thing. Why did you not ask me where I was this morning because you were worried, not because you were keeping inventory? Why did you not notice three days ago when I could not stand near lamp oil for more than a minute?"
I open my mouth and close it. She watches the failure. I force myself to say the thing that costs. "Because I'm trained to count doors before I count faces," I say. "Because I have lived a long time in rooms where care looks like a threat if you show it wrongly. Because there is a part of me that believes I will lose you if I take my hand off the perimeter to touch your cheek." I drop my gaze to the floor to give her the target she merits. "And because you held it back to own it."
She takes a step as if to pass me, then stops. "I did not tell you because I did not know how to fight your discipline," she bites out. "I did not tell you because if you married me with the child unknown, at least I would know the vow was not cornered by duty." She pauses at the edge of the rug. "I did not tell you because I'm my grandmother's blood, and the line in the book says no secrets, and the truth felt like it would turn me to salt if I spoke it toosoon," she says, her voice level and wide as a winter harbor at slack tide.
"You should have told me," I say, not lacing it with a plea. "You should have come to me with your truth."
"And you should have given me a reason to believe I wouldn't turn into another ledger entry." Her hand goes to her belly and stays there. "You ask for the truth. I bring you the whole of me. I will not trade my spine to buy your mercy."
The latch turns. Misha steps to the edge of the room with a small case and a face set to business. He reads the weather in one look and speaks to me, not to her. "Field kit."
"Here," I say. "Gloves. Dead sleeve. No power. No wire. This is a black file under the icon, a closed circle. Katya runs it cold, and she runs it deep with the Monk in the grey room. Output is on paper, by runner to my hand. No copies. No chatter. Time-stamp it on your card."
I turn to Valentina. "Whatever is on this, you will see when I see."
Misha nods once. He pulls on gloves, slips the stick into a sealed sleeve that drinks signal and rumor both, writes the hour and his mark on a card, and puts the bundle into his inner pocket. "I will mark it in our highest lock, as you said. Katya will use our quiet forensics priest in the lab with no windows to the net," he repeats under his breath. He is gone in three heartbeats, the door closing without a sound.
I return my eyes to her. "I'm telling you the line no man in my seat likes to say.I did not know.No one on my crew was ordered to touch your clinic file. No one on my crew wasordered to tail you like a mark. If any man broke that line on his own, I will break him. If this was dressed to look like us, I will turn that dressing into the rope that hangs the hand that tied it."
"And in the meantime?" She lifts the tote and lets it fall against her hip. "So tell me how to stand with you when the proof of a leak and the proof of a theft arrived from the wrong mouth and not from yours."
I look at her and let her see what I don't give to rooms. "You hurt me," I say. The admission lands in my own mouth and tastes like copper and ash. "Not because of the child. Because you almost made me speak vows with rot under them, because you did not trust me with the one truth that would have changed how I walk through this next hour."
Her mouth falters. Her eyes slide off the lamp as if the room has shifted a degree. Her hand rises to her lips and stills.
"I did not mean to do that," she says, the hinge in her voice unfamiliar. "I meant to protect us."
"I understand," I say. "And I'm still cut."
