I must have been really bad if both Paige and Kai were worried about me.
We’re walking the halls hand in hand, avoiding the other students who are rushing to get to their next class. “Paige clued me in on everything except the part when you dropped me off.”
Kai walks me into the auditorium. I’m surprised no one is in here ditching. It’s a pretty good spot. It’s dark, with a ton of chairs you could hide in. If you’re quiet, I doubt anyone would see you. Why haven’t I done this before?
We take a seat on the highest chair, where no light shines in. “Do you not want to go to class?” I ask Kai.
“I would rather sit here with you. I worried all day yesterday about you.”
He pulls me into his arms. The warmth of him radiates through my body. “So, what happened?”
“First off, you were very stubborn that night.”
I smirk and raise my brows.
“I kept telling you to let me walk you inside and you wouldn’t let me because you said your mom would find out. You were so worried about me getting into trouble with your mom. I let you go in by yourself. We stayed back for a little to see if we saw any lights turn on or heard any noises. Since we didn’t hear anything, we left.”
As I continue to tell Kai what I woke up to, I can’t help shake the feeling of being on edge. I can’t keep drinking like that. It’s scary to get so drunk I don’t even know what I’m doing and can’t remember what happened.
“This should be a good spot,” Kai says while looking around.
This park is bigger, with a lot more trees around to help keep us hidden. We walked to the farthest corner of the park under a gigantic tree so no light would shine around us. Kai lays a blanket down for us to lie on. This time, he brought a pillow to rest underneath our heads.
We’re going to have to stop doing this. It’s late October, and the weather is dropping. Too low for us to hang outside. Kai places a big puffy comforter around us.
I shiver into Kai’s arms and snuggle my head into his chest. The beat of his heart rings through my ears. I’ve never felt this comfortable with someone. The feeling is exciting. My life has brightened up more since we met. He makes me feel like this will last forever.
Kai turns toward me, tracing his finger down my cheek. Despite the darkness of the night, his bright-blue eyes sparkle. I inch closer to him until I feel his breath on my lips. His gaze flickers to my lips, and without hesitation, I reach for him, pulling him in until our lips meet and our tongues glide together. Heat rises between our bodies and makes the air feel less cold. His hands softly explore my midsection, sending goosebumps down my body. My hand glides down his midsection until it reaches his buckle.
Breaking the kiss, his gaze intensifies. “Have you ever done this before?”
“No,” I say, swallowing hard.
Does he want someone who has done this before?
Does he think I’m not a virgin?
“Have you?” I ask quietly.
“Yeah.”
My breathing becomes shallow. I don’t know why I feel a sense of shock. I assumed he had. He’s more experienced than me.
“Are you sure about this?” he asks.
“Yes.” I want my first time to be with him. He already makes me feel happy and special. This is another piece that will connect us even more.
But I can’t help but think about what happened with Paige and Jace. Does he just want me for sex? For my virginity?
He grips my chin up to meet his gaze. “We don’t have to right now. We can wait until you’re ready.”
“Do you just want me for my virginity?” I blurt out.
He squirms a little beneath my head. “Why would you ask that? Does it look like that’s the only thing I want from you?”
“No. But…” A knot forms in my stomach, and my chest pinches. I already regret what I just asked. Of course Kai isn’t like that. He’s already shown me so much in the little time we’ve been together.
“But what?”
