“Well…”
“My gods, Rick! You’re so used to people chasing you, you forgot you could make a move too.”
“What, like call him? He’s on a plane now.”I already blew it.
“No, you idiot. Go after him.”
“And do what?”
“Dude, I don’t know. It was you who he fucked with those magical tentacles and screwed with your love buttons.”
I snorted out a laugh. She had a point. “Should I just show up on his doorstep and confess my love?”
“Isn’t that what they do in movies?”
“Zoe!”
“I’m serious! Sitting and hugging a blanket that smells of him won’t help. Trust me.”
It was creepy how accurate she was. Had she gone through a breakup like that too? I was such a shit friend not to know that.
“I don’t have his exact address but I know the city and I have an idea how to google the rest.”
“Good. Now go, I need to build legos with my nieces.”
“Wait. We have a concert tomorrow.” My stomach sank. This is why Ner said we wouldn’t work.
“Fans will be disappointed, but it’s a small gig and we can make it up by playing twice in January. I’ll tell everyone you’re sick.”
“But what if being with him meant we couldn’t tour?” Panic flooded me again. I couldn’t pull a Linc. I didn’t want to.
“We’ll figure something out.” Zoe’s tone was calm, as if she had everything under control. Why wasn’t I like that?
“I can’t live without music, without the band.”
“Can you live without him?”
I couldn’t breathe. The thought paralyzed me, and I had to force myself to take a lungful of air. “I need to buy a ticket to Greece. Thanks, Zoe. You’re the best.”
“Yeah, well. Don’t call again unless you talk to Ner. Oh, and contact your brother, he misses you.”
“I know. I texted him.”
“Ohmygo—”
“Bye!” I hung up, tossed the phone on the couch, and stood up.
Fuck.
The lights on the Christmas tree flickered with colors, reminding me of Ner and the joy he’d brought to my life. Closing my eyes, I took a deep breath. I was somewhere between screaming and punching something for my stupidity. I was done crying, though.
Which meant I had to act.
Chapter Nineteen
Rick
December31st-afternoon
