“At least Mum has taken a shine to Arthur.”
“I’m glad she approves of your pet cactus.”
He looks around. “You don’t have any plants.”
“No. Like you, I don’t have a green finger.”
“I’ve managed to keep Arthur alive.”
“I know. I’m proud of you.” I lean down to kiss him, enjoying how he sucks my tongue.
He runs his fingers through my short hair. “You’re such a good kisser.”
“So are you, beautiful.” I have to sit up or risk an aching back for the rest of the night.
Haru stays where he is, so I stroke his hair and cheek as I gaze into his eyes.
“Do you remember everything you said during our phone sex session?” he asks.
“Yes.”
“You said you’d put me on my knees and fuck my mouth.”
I shiver.
He looks down, his long, thick lashes hiding his eyes. “It’s okay if you don’t want to.”
“Do you want me to?”
“Yes.”
“Has anyone ever—”
“Yes. I have a nonverbal safeword for a reason. I guess it’s not a word, but you know what I mean.”
“I do.” I nudge his chin to encourage him to meet my stare.
He does. “I’ll let you fuck my mouth if you want to. Or you can lie back and relax, and I’ll suck you off if you’d prefer. Or we can watch another film or talk, or you can read some more ofNeuromancerto me. I’m easy.” He stretches as if to prove he doesn’t mind what we do.
“Could you explain why you’d want me to fuck your mouth?”
Haru tugs his brows together.
“I can’t imagine giving someone that much power. Don’t get me wrong. I enjoy giving a guy a blow job, but on my terms. The second he gets carried away and tries to force himself deeper into my mouth, I nope out.”
He reaches up and strokes my jaw. “That’s where we’re different. I want to surrender. It’s why I like being tied up. I want to give my Dom control to do what he wants.” He sucks in a breath. “Plus, I know I can get control back when and if I need to.”
“Have you ever needed to?”
“Yes. I met one guy at a kink club who was so rough it wasn’t pleasurable to be on the receiving end. I clicked. He stopped. We had a chat about what went wrong and then tried again.”
I feel better knowing that. “Why do you want to surrender?”
“Because it’s freeing. I can let everything go and enjoy the moment. I don’t have to think or worry. And I know I’m making the guy I’m with happy. That it’s bringing him pleasure when he takes whatever he wants from me.”
“Within your limits.”
“Right. I’d be upset if a guy tied me up and pissed on me, for example. Or tied me up and spanked me.”
