He kissed Luc hard, the pressure of his lips bruising Luc's. Not that Luc minded. He was more than open to playing rough with any man, but especially with Adam. They grabbed each other and wrestled for dominance, first Luc twisting them so it was Adam pushed up against the wall, then Adam tipped them both onto the floor. Their lips didn't part as they play-fought one another, arms sliding all over each other's bodies.
It took seconds for Luc's cock to become erect and only a few more before he could feel his stepbrother's hard-on too. Fuck, he wanted to get his mouth around Adam's cock. He pinned Adam to the floor and raised himself up on one arm, so he could easily stare down in his stepbrother's eyes.
He tugged on Adam's waistband. "Take these off. I want to blow you."
Adam didn't move. Luc tugged again; his patience was starting to wear thin. Their wrestling had only served to amp up his frustration. He needed release and not the kind he could get from whacking himself off, whilst alone in his room. Adam's lips parted a fraction as his forehead crumpled. Shit. Was he going to freak out again?
"It's just us," Luc reminded him.
"And you're happy with skulking around behind our parents' backs, are you?" Adam shot back.
Luc sighed. "No. But I very much doubt you want to sit down and tell them we want to screw each other, do you?"
His arm was starting to shake from holding his body up, but he kept himself still, neither wanting to move away or allow his body to sink down onto Adam's.
"Do you?" Adam asked. "Is that a conversation you'd be willing to have?"
Luc pursed his lips. Would he? It felt like coming out of the closet again, only more terrifying. Their parents were pretty open minded, so announcing he was gay hadn't been that huge of a deal. Yes, he'd been nervous; he'd figured that was natural. But this? Telling them he was in love with his stepbrother? He doubted their parents werethatopen minded. And yet he knew that keeping secrets didn't help, either. He only had to think of the years he'd wasted, separated from his stepbrother, to realise that.
He inhaled slowly. "I'd rather be honest than hide. I know telling Mum and Dad will be difficult and that they might not understand, but I'm sick and tired of hiding how I feel. I'm also not going to do anything that might stop something happening between us. So, if it's secrecy you want, that's what we'll do. I want you, Adam. I'm not sure how many times I have to tell you that."
Adam stared at him, his expression conflicted.
"You kissed me," Luc reminded him. "I get this is confusing for you, but you also can't keep blowing hot and cold on me." He moved to sit beside Adam, with his legs splayed out. "You need to make your fucking mind up and decide what it is you want."
Adam sat upright, looping his arms over his knees. He clasped his hands together, staring at the sprung floor rather than Luc.
"I get that your head is a mess right now." Luc ran a hand through his hair. "Because I'm confused as all hell, too. Do you think this is easier for me?"
Adam shook his head.
"I've spent years fighting my attraction for you and now... now..." He threw his hands up in a hopeless gesture. "Either you want me, or you don't."
There was a long pause, during which it felt like his heart was pounding in his mouth.
"I don't," Adam said eventually.
Luc pinched his lips together as his heart slammed into the pit of his stomach. "You said you did."
Adam shook his head fiercely. "I was feeling horny and wasn't thinking straight. What happened on Friday was a big fucking mistake."
"And just now? When you were all over me?"
Adam nodded. "That too. And I know you think the same way, or you wouldn't have been in such a hurry to get your clothes back on when Mum and Dad came home."
Luc shrugged nonchalantly. "I would have done that no matterwhowas in my room with me. There's no bigger cock-block than having your parents show up."
Adam snorted and shook his head.
"When was the last time you brought a guy here?" Luc asked. "When was the last time you gave someone a blowjob, knowing Mum and Dad were downstairs? Hell, when was the last time you fucked a guy with them in the house?"
"Never."
"Exactly," Luc said, a note of victory giving buoyancy to his voice. "Just because Mum and Dad might not understand, it doesn't mean it's wrong." He adjusted his jeans so they weren't chaffing his hard cock as badly. It was clear he wasn't going to get any release from Adam. "Either you want me, or you don't. But don't mess around."
Adam opened his mouth to speak but shut it again. He clutched his head, tipped it back and growled at the ceiling. "I don't know what I want," he breathed. He dropped his hands to his sides. "It's not that simple, Luc."
"Nothing worthwhile ever is." Luc tried to smile, but he felt his lips droop instead.
