“Mishkaki wa kuku, samaki ndizi, mbuzi mbavu choma, ugali, maharagwe . . .”I didn’t catch the rest of what the waitress said as she placed heaping platters of food on our table. She held a kettle over a wash bin so we could rinse our hands with warm water before eating.
It was a feast fit for the gods, and it smelled just as incredible: crispy fried fish and plantain, boneless cubes of chicken on wooden skewers with pili-pili sauce, goat ribs so tender that the meat fell clean off the bone, leaving charred bits of salt and chili to savor, a polenta-like dish to counter the flavors exploding in my mouth; bean stew, tamarind sauce, and sips of ginger beer to wash it all down with.
“Leta chipsi,” said Jack to the waitress, as I mopped up the last of the plantain. There was no cutlery, so I had to lick the sauce off my fingers.
“Sochipsiis chips?” I asked, when she brought us a plate of sizzling french fries.
“Yes, you just add theiat the end. A lot of English words get assimilated into the local dialect like that.”
I nodded, watching two school-aged boys rinse dirty plates by the side of the road before bringing them back to the kiosk. Somewhere across the busy streets, evening prayers blared from a nearby mosque.
“Ready to go?” asked Jack, summoning the waitress as I sat back, staring at the empty plates before us. We’d managed to demolish everything on the table.
“Wait. I’ve got this,” I said, turning to her. “Leta billi.”
Ifchipswaschipsi, thenbillmust bebilli. I held my breath, wondering if I’d gotten it right.
“Yes, madam,” she said. And off she went.
“I’m getting the hang of it.” I shot Jack a victorious grin. It didn’t last too long.
The waitress returned with a man by her side. He wiped his rough, wizened hands on his apron and looked at me expectantly.
“You asked for Billy,” the waitress prompted after a few awkward ticks, where I glanced from her to him and back again.
“I’m sorry. I meant the bill.”
Billy muttered something in Swahili and stomped off. He was clearly not pleased at having been called away from his grill.
“Would you like to practice your Swahili some more, or shall we getgoingi?” Jack teased, as he paid our bill.
I exited as gracefully as I could, my heels getting stuck in the gravel just twice. I waved at Billy from the car. Billy did not wave back.
Jack and I kept a straight face as we waited for someone to let us merge back into the street. Then we burst out laughing. Around us, horns honked. Night markets passed by in a blur of kerosene lamps and bargaining. A canopy of stars materialized as we drove away from the heated haze of Amosha.
“Where are we going?” I asked, when Jack turned onto a moon-bleached path between silver cornfields.
“Right . . . here.” He stopped, backed the car up into a clearing, and turned the engine off. “Come on,” he said, grabbing the box of sugar cookies from the back seat and getting out.
The air was thick and warm with the fragrance of night jasmine. There was a gentle humming around us, like a swarm of bees.
“What’s that sound?” I asked, kicking off my heels and following Jack to the back of the car. The grass was suede soft and silent under my feet. “It reminds me of . . .” I trailed off as I followed his gaze.
We were parked by the edge of a stream. A small waterfall cascaded over the rocks on the other side. Silver threads fused and spilled over a gravelly bed in whirls of foam. The moon hung silently above, casting a honeyed sheen over the trees.
“It’s so beautiful here,” I said. The gurgling, the swishing, the sparkles of shimmering spray—it was like having front row tickets to an illusory concert.
“A beautiful place for a beautiful girl.” Jack caressed my cheek. His face held an irrefutable sensuality, but in the moonlight he positively slayed me.
He opened the rear door of his Land Rover and we sat there, my head on his shoulder, our legs dangling out of the trunk as we watched the silky fall of water break over the gleaming rocks. He fed me tulip-shaped cookies, and I breathed in his skin-warmed scent. For a while, it seemed like time had stopped forever. The stars marched across the sky, galaxies whirled around us, and yet we sat still and suspended, not wanting to shatter the magic. It was the kind of magic that comes after a lifetime of searching, when you stumble upon something so perfect, you stop looking, and you say:Yes. This. I know this. I feel this. I’ve heard its footsteps echo down the hallways of my soul.
We turned to each other with kisses that were soft and greedy, reverent and selfish—each one like a pressed daisy to be hidden between the pages of our story. Falling in love with something that can never be is like piercing yourself with a honey-dipped dagger. Over and over again. It’s sharp and sweet, beautiful and sad, and you don’t always know which when you cry.
“No.” Jack kissed the damp corner of my eye. “This is not how I want to remember you. It’s not how I want you to remember us.”
“Then how? How will you remember me when I’m gone?”
“Like this.” He slid the straps of my dress off, first one, then the other. “Your shoulders gleaming in the moonlight. Crystals of sugar on your lips.” He brushed his mouth against mine, his tongue tasting the remnants of the cookies he’d fed me. “Your hair, like ribbons of satin over my palms. The thrill of undressing you. Like this.” He slid the zip down my dress, exposing my flesh, goosebump by goosebump. “The feel of you in my arms, the way your lids drop over your eyes when I bite you here.” His teeth grazed a spot under my ear where my jaw met my neck. “I will remember the perfect oval of your face, the warmth of your throat, the way you hold a pen when you write. Most of all . . .” He cupped my chin, his eyes roving over my upturned face. “I will remember a strange, beautiful girl who liked the feel of old books and drank her coffee sweet. She snuck onto my porch on a gray day and taught me to see in color. She was a thief, my rainbow-haloed girl. When she left, she took my heart. And if I had another, I would give her that too”
