I bet you feel so good.
I wouldn’t be surprised if I come quicker.
What do you want me to do to you?
I want to make you come tonight.
What would we be doing if I came to your room right now?
My breath hitches, and my eyes shoot to the door.
Are you coming here now?
No, I said ‘if’, sunshine. I’m not walking around in my current state.
I would fuck you in every position I could think of.
All over the room.
No sturdy surface or wall would be safe.
Fuck, I’m close.
Come for me, baby.
I’ll make you scream anytime.
Thinking about you coming right now will make me come so hard for you.
Ohhh, fuck.
I’m coming.
Fuck me.
Me too.
Wow, that was incredible.
That was different.
Yeah, but fun, ace. x
That definitely was fun.
18
Sophia
June – One Raceway, New South Wales
Surveying the data readings on our pit monitors as Javi is out on track is my happy place. Data is easy. I can make sense of data. It’s clear, and doesn’t get me in trouble or second guessing everything I have put in place to keep the people around respecting me. Dating in the paddock is not a light decision to be made. Yes, people do it, but I don’t think it’s for me. Perry was different because he wasn’t part of this sport.
Even if I was ready to see someone, which I really don’t think I am, seeing a rider is not the smartest choice I can make. Plus, I need to take time for myself, right? Isn’t that what all those rom-com movies are about?
How long do I wait after a relationship before seeing someone out amongst people? No, I can’t think that. I am still broken; I can’t see anyone until I have worked out what’s swirling around in my head.
I have been making progress within myself, but I still feel guilty. I’ve been seeing an online therapist recently. We have been doing online calls, and she’s helped a lot. We’ve been doing a lot of work in dealing with Mum’s death, but also working on the Perry rejection. It’s not right to be entertaining thoughts with Javi before I am feeling better within myself.
