Her fingers curl at my neck, and she leans into me with another moan. I want to kiss her everywhere. I want to bury my face in her breasts, in her pussy… I’m lost in a haze of everything I want to do to her when I feel pressure against my shoulders.
She’s pushing against me, and I lift my head to find her eyes. “What is it?”
“I’m sorry…” She gasps, and it’s more of a groan. “I’m so sorry, Remi, but we have to stop. We can’t do this. You know we can’t.”
We’re standing in front of each other breathing hard. Her chest rises fast, and I can see the swell of her breasts beneath the silk fabric as she tightens it again. She’s absolutely mouthwatering.
I place one hand on the wall beside her face. “Tell me… What’s on your mind? What are you thinking about?”
She shakes her head, putting her hands on her cheeks. “It’s everything we both know. I can’t live here and be Lillie’s nanny if we’re having sex.”
My body is on fire, and I’m not sure I can walk away. “You can. It’ll be our secret.”
“Things like that never stay a secret.” Her eyes dart side to side. “Someone will find out, and it’ll most likely be Eleanor. Then she’ll have a field day making me look like… some kind of geisha girl.”
“The geisha were Japanese. You’re Korean.”
“Remi—” Her chin rises, and I see the pleading in her eyes.
Still, I can’t resist. I lean forward, inhaling her sweet scent, brushing her soft lips with mine.
It’s not a kiss until she exhales a little groan and catches my face, pulling my mouth to hers again. It turns fast and our tongues curl and slide, but with another little groan, she pulls away from me.
“No, I can’t. You have to go, Remi.” Her back is to me, and she’s holding her robe closed. “You have to go… or I will.”
Those words change everything. They’re a splash of cold water right in my face. It might be dangerous having her living here, but I can’t bear the thought of this house without her.
“No… I’ll go. We won’t do it again.”
She doesn’t turn to face me, and with a heavy sigh, I open the door, taking one more look at the beautiful creature I just held in my arms before I leave.
I can’t lose her. I don’t know what that means, but I’m going to find out. Solving problems is what I do.
13
Ruby
“Kissing him sober is even hotter than kissing him slightly drunk.” I’m at an open-air mall in Timmons, the slightly larger suburb to the north of us.
Drew likes it because she can look for wedding dresses without all of Oakville knowing her business. I like it because it has a carousel for Lillie.
“Kissing your boss…” Drew teases as we watch the ride go around. “You’ll be sleeping with him soon.”
“I will not… although, he is packing some serious meat in those jeans. I swear to God.”
I want to see it. I want to touch it.I can’t stop thinking about it.
“So just get your own place and date him. You can still be Lillie’s nanny.”
“Can I?” I tilt my head to the side, trying to decide how I feel about that arrangement. “It seems weird for him to be paying me while I’m sleeping with him.”
“Get your paychecks direct deposited.” She laughs, and I crack a smile.
Then I sigh, remembering his hands on me, how easily he lifted me against the wall and devoured my mouth. How hard and massive his erection felt against my stomach. A little shiver passes through me.
“It’s not a bad idea.” I think about the check I deposited this morning on my way to Drew’s, thirty-five hundred dollars. It appeared in a business envelope on my dresser yesterday evening, while I was out avoiding him.
Holy shit.
