But the kicker is, I’m surprised by my reaction as well.
“Right.” He huffs and stands, shuffling past me and down a small passageway from my sight.
Exhaling, I rest my head on my knees as the tears fall. Now, I’m on a jet to the States, and the one person who was going to look after me, I’ve managed to make incredibly angry.
Good going, Dee. Well done!
I feel someone at my side and look up at Anna, who is sitting beside me. She smiles and hands me a tissue. “If it’s any consolation, I told them to leave you guys alone, but they never listen to me. Even Johnny was telling them to walk away, but what can I say? They’re all arseholes.”
I half-smile, taking the tissue and wiping my eyes and nose. “What am I even doing here?” I ask Anna.
She wraps her arm around me. “You’re here because you are having an adventure with a really awesome friend who needs your company because her husband’s on tour with a bunch of arseholes.”
I manage a slight smile, and she clasps my hand, giving it a gentle squeeze. “I think I really pissed Colt off.”
“Meh, he’s a tough nut. He’ll get over it. He’s not used to being sassed. Girls throw themselves at him, and he always has to push them away. He’s not used to someone thinking that he’s not right for them. Which, between you and me, I think you’re perfect for him. He needs someone with a level head, which you definitely have.”
“Not bloomin’ lately,” I say.
“Well, maybe you can teach him a thing or two, and he can teach you as well. You both have polar opposite personalities, and you know what they say?” she says, smiling at me. I furrow my brow in confusion and shake my head. “Opposites attract. And with that in mind, you and Colt are a match made in heaven. I just hope he sees what’s in front of him. The amazing and bright young woman that Johnny and I see.”
I exhale and look back down the passage. “Thanks, Anna. I really appreciate you.”
She nods, then stands abruptly. “Go find him, hun. I know everything will be all right,” she states, patting me on the shoulder.
Taking a deep breath, I put my legs down from the seat and stand, wiping my eyes while Anna walks back to Johnny. She’s right. I know she is. But this is all so new to me, and I don’t know any of them. And worse than that, I feel out of my depth most of the time.
Heading down the passage in search of Colt, I walk past the bathroom and touch my lips, smiling as I remember the feeling of his mouth on mine. I keep walking and notice another door, so I knock and open it to a small office. Colt’s on a phone plugged into the wall of the jet. He looks up at me as I enter the office.
“Can you hold on for a sec, Sarah?” he asks, covering the receiver.
“I’m just organizing something. Can we talk later?” Colt then goes back to his conversation with Sarah,whoever the hell she is.He turns in the chair so his back faces me as if I’m not even here.
“Okay, so I’ll see you at midday. Yep, in the luxury suite. Thanks, Sarah, can’t wait,” he says, making me feel sick to my stomach. I close the office door and lean against the wall.
He just had sex with me in this freaking stupid jet, and now he’s arranging to meet Sarah in the luxury suite.
I fucking hate flying!
Walking back down the passage and to my seat, I feel like my whole world is spinning out of control.How could I have been so wrong about Colt?I thought he liked me. I know I’m certainly feeling something for him. Maybe this is all just craziness from my breakup with Joseph. Maybe I am so heartbroken over Joseph leaving me, and this is a coping mechanism that’s failing miserably. Panic falls over me as I sit in the back of the jet, watching everyone in front of me having a laugh and gettingalong well. Reclining my seat, I lie down, letting the feeling of melancholy wash over me once again.
How did this get so messed up and so quickly?
I turn on my side, facing the wall, and softly cry. At the sound of footsteps behind me, I turn to look at Colt walking down the passage toward me. I wipe the tears from my face and go to sit up as he reaches me, but he keeps walking straight past me without even looking. He continues toward the front of the jet to Dingo, who slaps him on the back as he sits down next to him.
The new sparkle in Jessi’s eyes at his appearance doesn’t go unnoticed, and she instantly pounces on his lap. He does nothing to stop it, but he also doesn’t reciprocate anything she is trying with him. I should get up and slap a girl silly, but I can’t bring myself to care.
I think I just hit a new low.
He didn’t even look at me.
What the fuck am I doing here?
I turn back over and softly cry myself to sleep.
A new habit, it seems.
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