Ned steps in and quietly shuts the door behind him. There is a strange look in his eyes and it makes me shiver.
He takes a step towards me. I thrust my hand out in a jerky gesture. I don’t want to talk anymore about it. I want to get it over with.
Ned takes my hand. He turns it over. His thumb rubs lightly over the inside of my wrist. I shudder. He lifts my wrist towards his mouth.
Suddenly, my door is flying open, and Blue is yanking Ned away from me. The vampire turns around and growls at Blue.
What the actual fuck? I’m standing between them before I’ve even thought about it. I open my mouth to yell something, but then my gaze meets Blue’s, and the devastation and hurt I see in his eyes, freezes every last bit of my anger.
“Ned, would you please give us a minute?” I say softly.
“Sure,” drawls Ned from behind me.
As he leaves, I see a glimpse of his face and I swear I catch a smirk. The fucking prick. If he orchestrated all of this to make Blue jealous and force us to talk, I’ll flipping kill him. I don’t care if he is already dead. I’ll find a way.
“Why?” Blue says.
And fuck does that feel like a knife to the heart.
“Why not?” I shrug coldly.
Blue winces. Round one is over. The score is one all. We have both struck painful blows. Might as well get this match over with.
“You didn’t want me,” I say. “No one ever does.” Oops, that last bit slipped out.
Blue’s eyes grow large and glassy. “I wanted you!” he protests.
“Then why did you want to break the mate bond?” I snap.
“Because I’m no good for you!” Blue all but snarls.
What the actual fuck? What absolute horseshit nonsense is this? This is the most ridiculous thing I have ever heard in all my life. But all that comes out of my mouth is a strangled,
“Why?”
Blue runs a hand through his hair and tugs on it. “I can’t do sex.”
“Blue! Are you really such a fucking idiot? Do you really think I care about that? And what we did counts as sex in my book!”
My frustration is coursing through my veins. It’s swelling my heart and filling my lungs. Blue simply blinks at me as if I’mspeaking gibberish. Gah! This man is the most annoying man on the planet, I swear!
“Sex doesn’t just have to be penetration. And even if it does, lord knows I’ve had enough of that for five lifetimes. I don’t mind never doing it again. So how about instead of deciding I can’t go without, why don’t you try fucking asking me!”
My angry words bounce off the walls. Blue flinches as each one hits him. Guilt flickers beneath the fury in his glowing eyes.
“You were going to let Ned feed from you. Clearly you do need sex, and you can’t have been that devastated over us if you are jumping into his bed so quickly!”
My mind takes a moment to process what he says. And then all I feel is white hot rage. Blue ripped my heart and soul out. He tore them up and stomped on them. He left me so lonely and feeling so unwanted that I was willing to give a vampire my blood just so I could pretend that someone wanted me.
And here Blue stands, accusing me of not giving a shit. Of moving on too easily. As if he wants me to suffer from his rejection.
“Get the fuck out of my room and never come back!” I yell at the top of my lungs.
The force of it frightens me. Blue pales. I blink and he is gone. Vanished, as if he was never here.
Fucking paranormals.
I throw myself onto my bed and cry. Again.
