Present
Jack
Icome awake with a scream trapped behind my clenched teeth, pain shooting through my jaw, bone hinges resisting the pressure on instinct. Cold sweat soaks my naked back and chest as well as the bedding, the sudden, stark discomfort now depressingly familiar. In contrast to the cool droplets soiling the bedsheet, the room is filled with a clammy heat that feels suffocating to my overwrought lungs.
Leo stirs to my left, turning over onto his side and blinking up at me with sleep-swollen eyes. In the darkness of our bedroom, the bright, pale blue of his irises almost seems to glow like an alley cat’s. With his messy black hair, pert little nose, and at times an imperious attitude, Leo makes me think of an expensive, purebred house cat who wandered away from home one day and got himself recruited into a stray-dog pack.
I let the sight of those pretty eyes lull my racing heart back to a calmer drop beat, raising a shaky a hand to run fingers through my damp, matted hair and counting every inhale and exhale in a bid to regulate my breathing back to something close to steady.
Leo half sits up, resting his weight on one elbow and reaching for me with his other arm. He hesitates before he touches me, waiting for permission. By now he knows that sometimes I don’t like to be touched after a night terror, that physical contact, even from him, can make me feel as if I’ve been flayed open, my every weak spot irrevocably exposed, like the nerves have been ripped right out of their hiding place beneath my skin, the underside of my flesh itching like termites are chewing at it with their razor-sharp little teeth.
I lean sideways, brushing my bicep against his hand, hung in midair, a bird without a perch. Leo closes his pale, slim fingers around my arm, blunt nails digging in just hard enough for me to feel the soft bite of them. He squeezes once, twice, communicating a nonverbal question. A simple “okay?” without needing to speak it aloud and break the oddly comforting quiet of the night.
It’s grounding, his distinct touch a reminder of who I’m in bed with, of who I am when I’m with him.
Empathy is splayed across Leo’s face as he looks up at me through dark lashes. His hair is a mess from sleep, and there are bruises under his eyes that remind me of how little rest he’s been getting lately.
Guilt clenches in my gut. He’s not been sleeping much because of me, because of the near-constant nightmares plaguing my—our—nights. Ever since we thwarted OI’s latest attempt to destroy the world, and my brother disappeared without a trace for the second time, I’ve been imagining worst-case scenarios about what might be happening to him by day and then having them play out in my dreams every night.
But even when mildly exhausted, Leo still looks so beautiful, too beautiful, almost divine. Almost, because of his imperfections. Not just the bags and the disastrous hair, but the myriad of silver scars on his sleekly muscled body, from years of going on missions for the agency, and the chipped incisor from when he was sparring with Rohan, and he accidentally sent him flying out of the ring. Leo’s still getting used to the enhancements given to him by the genetic mutations my brother forced on him, so he doesn’t always remember what he’s capable of now during a fight. Sparring with another Liquid Onyx survivor is helping him to hone that new skill set.
Inside and out, Leo is cracked and delicate but wicked sharp and unfathomably strong too, like smashed glass encased in glittering diamond. He’s an angel but a fallen one. Lucifer, free from his cage, a temptation and a heavenly warrior, bound into the same deceptively breakable form.
Suddenly captivated by the severe jut of his collarbone, I drop my face down to press a kiss to the juncture between his neck and shoulder. He gasps at the feel of my lips on his sleep-warm skin, the sound too loud in the silent room and entirely welcome. My tongue licks out just far enough to run the tip across the expanse of his pulse point, stopping at the edge of his jaw to scrap my teeth against the skin there.
Leo lets me raise myself over him, shifting around and widening his legs so I can climb between them and press him back into the mattress. He lies down again easily, accepting the change in mood without pause or question, allowing me this, the peace and bliss that comes alongside loving him with my body when all my mind wants to do is show me the horrors of my past.
We learned early on in our relationship that Leo likes to take it from me more than he likes to give it. Not that he won’t fuck me if I ask, but I mostly associate being fucked with missions that OI sent me on, where I had to sleep with targets. I would doanything for Leo, including taking his cock on a regular basis if he wanted it. Somehow, Leo knows without me telling him that I prefer it this way.
Thankfully, Leo also likes being crushed under me, smothered by my heat and muscle. He admitted to me, once and only once because Leo, despite his kinder nature, is not often soft or intimate in bed, especially not verbally, that curling up beneath me, caught and unable to escape, is the safest place in the world to him. I had to hide how much that gratified the possessive creature that lives inside me, how it sparked a fire to life in the core of my chest; otherwise, he would have balked at it and said something scathing to balance out the sweetness.
When we first started having sex, I was worried about hurting him, pushing too hard and wanting too much, the clawing monster inside my gut snarling at me to pin Leo down and fuck him until he wouldn’t be able to feel anything other than my cock splitting him open. It scared me, just a bit, how much I craved him, this beautiful nightmare of a man who came out of nowhere and burrowed himself between my ribs to carve his name on the delicate flesh of my heart.
But Leo proved himself far more durable than I could have imagined, and after a few tentative, slow fucks, at least by my standards, he demanded I stop holding out on him and fuck him properly, like I really meant it, like I wanted to mark him permanently with my bruises and cum, like I’d kill and die just to be inside him.
Leo was very specific about it, which was a bit worrying, considering the fact he was laying out all my own thoughts and desires as if he stole them from my head under the cover of darkness for the sole purpose of presenting them to me like he’d stumbled upon them by accident, leading me to believe he’s a witch of some sort as well as a prince. He’s half a fairy-tale cast,both the hero and the villain, the thief and the protector of my soul.
I press my mouth to Leo’s in a fiercely possessive kiss and align our cocks, ready to thrust against him, intent on drawing out those sweet, mewling noises from his throat that I’ve become undeniably addicted to. One day I’ll convince him to let me record his primal, needy little whines so I can listen to them on repeat all day.
Leo snakes his arms around me and digs his fingernails into my back, raking them down my sweat-soaked skin when I roll my hips and grind my cock against his, both of us hard as nails already, the anticipation, expectation of what’s coming enough to bring our lust to the surface, prepared to breach and spread like fire across a river of oil.
“Come on, Jack,” Leo pants against my spit-slick mouth, “love me how you know I like it. I want tofeelyou. I want to feel so much of you that there’s no room left for anything else.”
I groan loudly into his neck, thrusting again, hard, giving him what he’s asking for, so gone for him that refusing seems like a foreign concept, too arcane a thing to even consider.
Leo shifts, his intent clear as he pushes up the bed and reaches between us to grab hold of my cock. He presses the tip of it to his arsehole, encouraging me to breach that tight ring of muscle and spear him on my weeping erection. Still slick and loose from when we fucked earlier in the evening, I thrust into him in one smooth jerk of my hips, Leo’s guiding hand aiding the easy glide.
Impatient as ever when it comes to sex, Leo wraps his legs tightly around me and tugs me deeper into him. He doesn’t hesitate to take me, ignoring any remnant of discomfort or pain. He gasps, and I swallow it with my next kiss, licking into his mouth and sucking on his tongue while I get myself started on a punishing rhythm, thrusting in and out of his hole.
All the pleasure that comes from rolling my hips into him becomes a magnetic force, pulling me back again and again, my cock greedy to fill Leo’s hole and breach him further and further each time. I push in with a little extra force, battering up against Leo’s limits, eager to break through them and make him lose his mind.
Leo arches under me with a harsh mewl when my cock drags across his prostate.
“You’re so fucking gorgeous,” I murmur hotly into the skin of his bared throat, eliciting a full-body quake from Leo.
Now that I have the right angle, I’m able to hammer my cock against his prostate, and Leo loses whatever control he previously held onto. He trembles and writhes, at once clinging to me and thrashing around, like an animal caught in a trap, one he willingly clambered into. His desperation only fuels the fire inside me, the predator that lurks beneath the surface of my skin snarling in victory, demanding that I pin his hard, muscled body to the bed and take everything from him he’s willing to give and more.
“Sometimes,” I whisper to him darkly. “I look at you and I think that all I want to do is keep you here, in our bed, safe and warm and beautiful and aching for me to fill you up and take you apart.”
