I know this isthealpha I’ve been fearing from a distance, the very one that Selene hates. But the longer his scent coats my lungs, especially with whatever heady aroma he emits when he’s rutting, it’s like I’m a vegetarian wolf being presented with another fat, bloody steak.
Denying it, I think, might be impossible.
“Take off your dress,” he gently commands before releasing another growl that sends my knees slightly buckling. I take it off because I don’t think I can handle him doing it for me.
My pride can only take so many hits at once, and I think I’dlikeit if he did.
While I do that, he removes his pants to unveil his large, perfect alpha cock that is already hard, veined, and slightly dripping with pre-cum. The wonderful smell is something I’ll never be able to understand. He goes to his knees on the bed, lifting my legs up and to the side so he can slide his cock over my clit. I’m almost delirious with the need for him to shove it all inside of me. When I watch his cock disappear into me with the ease that my slick grants him, those rough, veined hands gripping my thighs, Iwhimper.
There’s no logic. No reasoning. Just some fucking between an alpha and omega, and I don’t even quite remember my own name as he fills me so thoroughly. The way my body rides off the wake of my orgasm with his cock makes me grip the bedding. He rocks in and out of me, his stomach flexing with each thrust. He breathes quicker, even grunting. “Such a good fucking omega. Your pretty pussy takes me so well,” he growls out. “Because I,” he grunts. “Am.” A thrust. “Youralpha.”
What do I do in response? I moan, my back arching as I rock back and forth to his fucking. Judge slams hard into me with a roar, coming right into me. I whimper with pleasure when his knot stretches me out, locking us together while the rest of me isfilledwith his cock. He repositions us so we’re on our sides, my ass firmly pressed against his lower stomach. Wrapping a massive, warm arm around me, he breathes heavily in my ear, feeling his cum slightly dribble out while knotted. Add all that onto me breathing in a nest that smells of us, and I’m utterly limp.
“This is unnatural,” I say, a deep sense of sleep coming over me with heavy eyelids. “Did you drug me again?”
“No,” he gently answers. “From what I have gathered, your body hasn’t relaxed in a very, very long time. To the point your nervous system is fried. While you’re here, you’re going to help your body heal from that.”
“By you fucking me?” I ask with a lame attempt at a laugh, closing my eyes fully. What’s the point in fighting it? He’s right, and how I desperately miss good sleep.
“By having your alpha tend to your needs, yes.”
Nope, I don’t like the way that stirs something inside of me.
The fight drains out of me rather quickly. The warmth of his body, the weight of his arm, the steady rhythm of his breathing—it all blurs together until the room feels far away. My eyelids grow heavier, the world softening at the edges, and before I can think of another question to throw at him, I’m gone, slipping under, caught somewhere between his heartbeat and sleep.
DIANA
Well,so much fortemporary.
I mean, I know he told me this was for my protection, and I know it makes sense, but I think I’m going stir crazy.
The first few days since I fell asleep in his arms—still a wild concept for me—I convinced myself I didn’t care. There’s a bed, water, books scavenged from the old world, and food is often brought. Andyes, there is hot chocolate, which still tastes more divine than I’ve ever had. I can hear that I’m above him, the sound of doors being shut, sometimes the scooting of a chair. But that’s it. Come to think of it, it could totally be someone else, and I’d never know…
But heat or not, Judge’s growl truly does a lot ofthingsto my body. I wonder if it’s related to the suppressants leaving my system, my hormones shifting, and him being my scent match.
Scent match…
Is hereallymine? And I’m really his? Whenever that alpha growls, my body relaxes like his sounds are a sedative.
At this rate, though, something has to change. I can’t keep doing this day in and day out. It’s beensixteen days—I notch them in the wood—since he first came up here,and I can tell I’m losing myself. I’m finding relief in Judge’s presence, because I’m starved of any human contact. The only voice I hear is my own, and then that of his rumbles.
I’m even dreaming about him.
He claims he freed Selene, but I haven’t seen any proof. I guess it will take a while for whatever letter she writes to reach me, but I’ve had to let that worry go for now. All I want when he’s in here is to have him put me to sleep again. Sleep makes time pass by, and I can tell itishelping my body.
It’s like I’m recoveringyearsof lost rest.
And that’s a truth I can’t deny—alphasdohave this effect on omegas. It’s slowly eating at me because he’s probably one of the best things to happen to my nervous system. I’m even slowly disliking it when he leaves. He says all the time, in this high he puts me in, how he will take care of me. He’smyalpha. That I’ll be begging for the bite in my neck. That when this is all over, I will live outside these walls and want fornothing.
I still don’t trust him.
He visits me every night, growling until my body betrays me. I’ve never felt so out of control before. The transition from feeling imprisoned to wanting his cock and knot inside of me is enough to truly mess with my mind. I get wet for him easily; his knot feels like fucking heaven, so it’s not like it’s abaddeal. I moan so deeply when he fills me, cum leaking out as he either lies me on top of him or behind me so we rest on our sides. He purrs and pets my hair, his pupils nearly always dilated.
Hedoestake care of me, I can’t deny it.
And every night, I tell myself I don’t listen for him. That I’m not waiting for the sound of his shower starting below me, the hiss of pipes that means he’s there—the beast beneath the floorboards. I’ve decided to believe it’s him, because thinking it’s someone else feels more like I’m a secret stuffed away.
Up here, I feel likemaybethere’s some truth to keeping me hidden for the sake of my safety.
