What’s not good to hear is that Braden is in the background. His name is all it takes for the guilt to set in about not telling Cici what happened. I always figured she’d be the first one I’d spill to about losing my virginity, but I can’t bring myself to do it. It was during her reception, no less. I feel like a terrible friend.
“So everything went well?”
“It did. Epidurals are magic. I didn’t feel any pain,” Cici says excitedly.
“That’s amazing. Ah, I can’t wait to see her.”
“Me too. I wish you were here. When are you coming? Have you booked your ticket yet?”
We’d already discussed waiting until a couple of weeks had passed. I didn’t want to intrude right away, so they could adapt to being parents without a houseguest. I’m sure they’ll be busy enough with all the family and friends around. But at least they don’t share space with them, unlike when I visit.
“I’ll come in two weeks. That’ll give you some time to have Abby to yourselves first.”
“Fine, but no later than that.”
I laugh. “Depends on when the best price is, but I’ll text you the details as soon as it’s booked.”
“Eli already said he’s paying for your ticket. He said it’s the least he can do since you took care of me during most of the pregnancy.”
“Tell him he doesn’t need to. I can afford a plane ticket.”
“That’s not the point.”
“I know, but I’ve got it.”
“Well, you two can argue about it later. Now take my video call so you can see Abby.”
I pull the phone away from my ear to the request coming through and hit accept. The first thing that greets me is Cici’s smiling face, which is as beautiful as ever. Only Cici could look like a million bucks after giving birth.
“How do you look that good after nine hours of labor?”
“Yeah right, I look like I ran a marathon yesterday, which I sort of feel like, actually. But it was worth it. Are you ready?” Cici asks while beaming.
The camera turns to reveal Abby, who Lily is holding. “Oh, Cici, she’s adorable. You guys made the perfect angel. Hello, little Abby. You’re such a pretty girl, aren’t you?” I ask in baby talk.
“She is, isn’t she?” Cici asks, turning the camera around to face her again.
It was only half a second, but the sight of Braden in the background makes my heart flutter.
“Can you believe it?” she continues, “All those months, and she’s finally here. Thank you for helping me through everything. I couldn’t have done it without you.” Tears cloud her eyes as she declares her heartfelt appreciation, causing my own tears to gather.
“No thanks needed. I loved it and I can’t wait to be there. I’ll let you go since you have visitors and send a text when I’m booked. Love you, Cici. Congratulations to you and Eli.”
“Thanks, Poppy,” Eli shouts from the background.
“Let’s talk soon, and if I don’t have your flight details by the end of the day, I’ll make Eli book a ticket for you,” she threatens.
I smile at her persistence. “I’ll do it right now. I promise. Bye.” I wave and hang up, slumping in my chair as I sigh.
My mind is stuck on Braden and the fact that he was in the room. It only took one glimpse to realize I’m just as attracted to him as before. The sad truth is, I haven’t been able to stop thinking about what we did, and if given the chance for a repeat, I’m scared I’ll shamefully accept.
Seconds later, my phone buzzes with a text. I click on the notification to a picture from Cici. It’s Abby… cradled in Braden’s arms for the photo. No doubt he did it intentionally. His favorite thing to do is get under my skin, and I’m sure he knew that would do the trick.
Only this time, it’s not because I can’t stand the sight of him, but because the sight of him makes me yearn for something I shouldn’t.
After a quick knock on the door, Matt peeks his head in, stopping me from delving deeper into that thought.
“Hey, it was quiet, so I figured you were off the phone. How’s Cici doing?” he asks, walking in and taking a seat.
