“Think of it like restitution, or penance, not punishment…Atonement,” Kai says, that begging tone from Friday morning returning. “Please.” The soft-spoken word sends a shiver acrossmy skin. There’s something that’s been bugging me though, and I need to know why he did it.
“Is that what your donation was? Reparations for breaking my heart?” I ask, voice barely above a whisper.
“No.” Kai shakes his head, frowning. “I never wanted you to know that was me.”
“But I do know.”
“I did it because it was your dream, and I could make it come true. I didn’t want you to think I was trying to use it to get you back. I wasn’t. It was meant to be a secret gift. Just something I knew would make you happy, even if it wasn’tforyou orfromyou. It was something I’ve known I would do since I was fifteen.” There’s a look of desperation in his eyes as he explains himself, like he’s genuinely worried I’ll think he’s lying.
I don’t know what sways me. Maybe he’s confirming what I already knew, or maybe it's the look on his face. So open. So sad and scared.
So sincere.
“Okay.” I nod, watching him deflate a little, his shoulders slumping. When I look up at Benson, he’s grinning at me.
Is this one of those moments where the alpha knows what I need before I do?
“Will you tie him up for me? In Nick’s room. Make sure he has a clear view of the bed. And make sure you do something about his mouth.” My words make Kai gasp, but his scent of balsams and cedar fills the area around us with desire.
We’re about to find out how far Kai is willing to let me take this before he taps out. Because after that confession, I’m so full of emotion I feel like I’m going to explode. I need a release.
I need an outlet. I need to feel something else, and I need these alphas.
“You three go. I’ll meet you up there after I finish this. I’ll save it for when you’re…finished,” Nick says to us, smirking.Apparently, he knows exactly what I need too. My body tingles with butterflies and nerves as I suck in a sharp breath.
Benson releases me and kisses my forehead before grabbing Kai by the elbow to drag him away. The beta doesn’t resist in the least. In fact, he looks relieved.
“Let's go, City Boy. You heard the Omega.” Benson uses his alpha bark on Kai, though he doesn’t need to. The sound of it does something to me though, and I bite my bottom lip as I watch them go.
Once I’m alone with Nick, I lean into him, wrapping my arms around his waist.
“Is this okay?” I ask against his bare chest. “You can tell me no. I don’t want either of you doing anything that makes you uncomfortable.”
“Of course it’s okay. Hell, it was mostly our idea.” Nick chuckles, rubbing my back soothingly. “If it’s what you need, then it’s what I need too. Whatever that looks like. Minus sword crossing.”
I frown, mouthing the words, ‘sword crossing.’When I realize what he meant, my eyes go wide, and I jerk in his arms to look up at him.
“Kidding. The three of us only have eyes for you, Plum. Just wanted to lighten you up a little before you go upstairs. Let yourself go. Do what feels right. Follow your instincts.” Nick presses a kiss to the same spot Benson had and gives my ass a little spank before nudging me toward the door.
Chapter Seventeen
I push Nick’s bedroom door open, stepping inside and finding Benson on the bed. He’s propped up against the headboard, one knee bent, with his forearm resting on it as he leans his head back on a pillow, eyes closed like he doesn't have a care in the world. Still shirtless, with gray sweatpants.
As I step further into the room, I find Kai. The sight before me has me snorting a very unattractive laugh.
Benson tied Kai up, alright. I cover my mouth as he and I stare at one another. I feel like I should be concerned by how content the beta looks right now. The alpha clearly used several neckties to secure the other man.
I take my time, counting each one. There's a matte black tie between Kai’s teeth, secured in a knot behind his head.
“Won’t be teasing me with that keeping your mouth full,” I say, smiling at the way his eyes darken, and he tilts his head slightly to the side. His hands are tied together with a blue tie, resting in his lap, his fingers laced together. “No touching either, hmm?” He clenches his hands together like he’s trying very hard not to think about that fact. There is even a gray tie around his ankles. “And no running away.”
“Is this what you had in mind, Omega?” Benson murmurs behind me, brushing my hair off my shoulder and pressing a delicate kiss there. While I had been distracted with my tied-up beta, the alpha slipped into the space behind me. “What do you want him to watch us do to you?”
“Fuck,” I gasp, spinning around to face Benson. I reach up to grip the back of his neck, pushing my fingers into his hair as I look up into his eyes. “Kiss me, please,” I whisper. “Knot me,” I add, glancing over my shoulder at Kai. His eyes are locked on Benson’s hands as he grips two handfuls of my ass.
“Jesus, Plum.” Benson groans. The way he shakes under my touch draws my attention back to him.
“Knot me, alpha.” I drag my fingertips along the muscles of his abdomen to the planes of his chest.
