She’s having a sleepover.
A sleepover is not rejection, but my Omega hindbrain is in overdrive, spiraling because she’s not here, and that means she rejected me because if she wanted me, she’d be here.
Maybe I should text her and ask her to come home.
Hey, I went off my suppressants. I know you said it didn’t have to mean anything when we slept together, but it meant something to me. Can you come home or meet me somewhere so I can finally know once and for all if we’re meant to be together?
I erase the message. It sounds absolutely unhinged andclingy, exactly why a lot of Betas don’t want to be with Omegas.
Thinking of you. We have a lot to talk about.
Nope, that isn’t it at all. It’s too cryptic. Even someone without anxiety would fly into a tailspin over that kind of message.
Hey. Everything okay?
That seems okay. It’s friendly, and totally what a best friend would do in this situation. This isn’t me being a whiny Omega. This is a friend checking in on his best friend.
My best friend, whom I am in love with.
I stare at my phone as the three dots bounce, indicating she’s typing a response. They start and stop several times before her message comes in.
Clara
Yeah, of course. We’re gonna make some cookies and watch movies. I’ll be home tomorrow around lunch.
Okay, that’s good. That’s promising, isn’t it? She’s not mad at me. She’s not blowing me off.
She’s not rejecting me.
Unless she’s lying to me, and she is there to tell Hazel that we fucked and ask for help on how to let me down easily.
Maybe she’s trying to figure out how to tell me we can’t live together anymore since we crossed that boundary from friends to lovers?
Temporary lovers.
Lovers that didn’t mean anything.
It meant something. It meant so much to me.
Knowing it may be a bad idea, but unable to help myself, I text Katy.
Hi, help. Help help help.
I kissed Clara.
Katy
Oh my god, what?? Finally!! So are you two a thing now?
We also slept together.
Holy shit. Tell me all about it.
She said that it doesn’t have to mean anything.
…
What did you say to that?
