“Just try. You’re the only one in my life. My heart is filled by you. I don’t think you realize how important you are to me. I’m in love with you.” I laid it all out for her. I was not going to be coy with my feelings, and she needed to know how important she was to me.
She didn’t respond to my words, and I needed her to feel the love I felt. I reached my arm out, and she didn’t back away. I wrapped my hand around the back of her neck and pulled her close. I kissed her with all the love and passion she evoked in me. If she didn’t believe my words, I wanted her to feel them through my kiss. I backed away and looked at her face. Her eyes were still closed. I watched as they fluttered open and looked at me with the softness I had seen before.
“I love you, too, Kayden. Don’t hide things from me anymore,” she asked.
“I promise not to lie to you again. I can’t imagine my world without you,” I told her while drawing her into an embrace.
She felt right in my arms. I was glad she couldn’t see my face. There was so much about me that Sophia didn’t know.
I hadn’t lied to her before, but I hadn’t been entirely forthcoming with my past.
I would share all the gory details when the time was right.
We needed to get through this moment before I could share my entire story.
14
Sophia
Forgiveness
After readingthe messages between Lisa and Kayden, I knew he told me the truth. I would try to trust him, but it would have to be earned over time.
Being so far away from each other wouldn’t help ease my insecurities. Kayden drove all night to apologize and explain his actions to me. We were both exhausted from the last twelve hours.
“You want to shower?” I asked.
“Yes, but only if you’ll take it with me.”
I crawled off the bed and stood next to him, holding out my hand. We walked to the bathroom without breaking physical contact. I started the shower and sat on the edge of the tub while he undressed.
“How long will you be here?” I asked.
“I have to leave in the morning. I’ll be back soon, though. I already booked my flight.”
He helped me up and slowly removed my pajamas. He climbed into the shower first and held me as I entered. He washed my skin from head to toe, and it was as if he wiped away the pain and distrust from my being. When he was finished, I reciprocated the act, but I used my hands. I lathered the soap in my hands before placing them on his chest. I slowly rubbed my palms and fingers all over his body, working my way down to wash him clean. After we both rinsed the water from our bodies, Kayden grabbed a towel off the rack. He toweled my body off gently, making sure not to miss a spot, and wrapped the towel around me. He secured a towel around his waist before turning back to me.
Kayden gathered me in his arms, and I clasped my hands around his neck, resting my head on his shoulder. He laid me on the bed. I watched as he removed the towel from his body and dropped it to the floor. I reached for my towel to remove it, but he shook his head.
“Don’t. I want to unwrap you,” he said as he moved toward the bed.
I laid my hands near my sides- and waited for him. He sat next to me and peeled the cloth off my body slowly, as if savoring the moment.
“Make love to me, Kayden.”
Kayden placed his body next to mine, leaning on one arm to keep his weight off of my body. He placed his hand on my neck with his thumb touching my face. He kissed me slowly and sucked my lower lip into his mouth. The only sound filling the room was our breath, shallow and rhythmic. His hand slid down my neck to my breast and squeezed before rolling my nipple between his fingers. I moaned into his mouth.
His lips broke from mine and followed a path down my neck to meet his fingers. His tongue laved at the tip, and he pinched it with his fingers. My hips moved on their own as if begging to be touched, and his hand left my breast to push them back down. He sucked my nipple into his mouth, grazing it with his teeth. He cupped my pussy with just the right amount of pressure to quell my ache.
Licking from my breast to my belly button, his tongue dipped inside as I squirmed. He chuckled at my reaction before continuing down my bare flesh. His tongue moved to the right as if to tease me and prolong what I needed—his tongue on my clit. He nudged my legs farther apart, and I did so willingly. He licked lightly across my lips before drawing my clit into his mouth. I fisted the sheets and curled my toes as he continued the ravenous pursuit of my orgasm. My body writhed from the pleasure as he sucked harder. His tongue flicked as the pressure increased. Every nerve ending in my body screamed for the release, and my skin became damp. My eyes began to blur, and then his mouth popped off my core. I whimpered from the loss.
“I want my cock in you when you come.” He prodded my core with his hardness.
He rubbed the tip against my wetness to ready it for my aching core. I missed him and the pain-pleasure combination he was able to bring my body. He entered me slowly, making sure I felt every inch. Before inserting his cock entirely, he stopped and stared into my eyes.
“I’ve missed you,” he said.
“I haven’t felt whole without you.” A tear trickled down my cheek.
