“I want you to use me. However you see fit.”
“Don’t I always?” Adam asked, ideas already outpacing themselves in his mind.
“Of course, Sir,” Cooper agreed, clearly knowing how much Adam loved the honorific. “But more than that, I think.”
“Why are you asking me for this now?”
“Because I still feel so good.” A low moan ripped out of Cooper’s mouth, rattling through the phone and into Adam’s ear. “I feel so good from yesterday and I want to feel better.”
“We would need time,” he said. “And space.”
“Space?”
“What if I chased you down, Cooper? What if I overpowered you?”
Cooper sucked in a breath.
Adam went on, “What if I dragged you back and tied you? If I gagged you? Blindfolded you? What if I immobilized you?”
“Sir.”
“What if I fuckedyou,Cooper?” Adam’s cock leaked against his briefs, the warm wetness soaking through the rough wool of his slacks with relative ease.
“I wouldn’t be able to stop you.”
Adam didn’t make a habit of topping. It wasn’t that he didn’t like it, he just liked bottoming more. And he loved bottoming as a dominant. There was something in his head that sparked like fireworks at bucking societal—and bedroom—expectations by taking a cock up his ass without being submissive. But Cooper was asking for something beyond what they’d done in the past. He was asking for more, and Adam wanted to give him more. Adam wanted to give him everything.
“Is this what you meant to ask for?” he asked. “Or did you have something else in mind? Be honest with me.”
“I don’t know what I wanted,” Cooper replied. “But my cock is hard at the idea of this.”
“What part of it?”
“All of it. You overpowering me, mostly, I think. I love when you get rough with me. When you manhandle me. It hurts and it makes me hard.” Cooper growled low in the back of his throat. “It makes me hard enough to fuck you until you scream. Sir.”
“Would you let me top you more? If that was what I wanted.”
“I’d let you piss on me if that was what you wanted,” Cooper countered.
“We can save that for another time, I think.”
“I want to know what our limits are,” Cooper said softly. “I want to see how far we can take this.”
“What if it’s too much?” He had just gotten Cooper back; he didn’t want to lose him again. Even though conversation had made things clear, he didn’t want the balance to tip too far in one direction or another. Adam wanted things to go right.
Suddenly, he was hesitant.
A feeling unfamiliar to him, especially in the context of kink. Even though submitting was new territory, it hadn’t ever made him feel unsure. He wouldn’t go as far as to say it felt natural to him, but with Cooper at least, it had felt like a naturalextensionof the relationship they were developing. It was a bit of a push on him mentally, but it had never felt dangerous.
He supposed that wasn’t a practical way to look at it, though. Because it had clearly proven itself dangerous in the past. His unease over submission was what broke them up in the first place, and he didn’t want that to happen again. Adam wanted to protect his relationship with Cooper at all costs. And if that meant keeping things easy and familiar, then he would.
“I have a safeword,” Cooper said. “So do you.”
Adam sighed. “I don’t want to get in over our heads.”
“That’s why we’ll do it together. We’re in this together, right? I know we haven’t talked about all of that yet, but…”
“I’m only with you,” Adam interrupted, heading off the question before Cooper could ask it. “Exclusively.”
