Benjamin scratches my arms, leaving stinging, bleeding welts behind as he comes again. I continue to jerk him off through the aftershocks of our orgasms, until finally, slowly, carefully, pulling away.
He tumbles onto the bed, and I lick his cum from my hand before helping him get better situated. He easily falls into my arms as I lay on the bed, and I hold him close, both of us needing time to catch our breaths and come down.
“We need to get cleaned up,” he says in a wrecked voice. “I’m filthy.”
“Just the way I like you, Topolino.”
He looks up at me, taking a moment to focus as his glasses got lost at the foot of the bed somewhere. “I love you, Tennant.”
“I know.” I brush his messy hair away from his forehead. “You see me, Benjamin, in a way not many do. Hollis, Roman, and Jude? They all love me, too. No less or more than you do. There’s room in my heart and life for all of you.”
“Promise?”
“Always, you’re mine. Sei il mio mondo.”
His lips quirk. “What does that mean?”
I lean in and kiss him. “You are my world.”
His breath hitches. “Ten…”
Rolling him onto his back, I lay over him, staring down into emerald eyes that shine with a love and a home I never expected to find in ones again, let alone in him.
“No matter what, if Emilio and I continue on this path we’re headed down, or if you take Ignacio back… You will always, always be mine, Benjamin. I see you. See your heart, I know how big it is, know how deeply you love. I trust you.”
“I… Sharing hasn’t ever been something I had to do…”
“Such a silly Baby Mouse. You will never share me, not the way you’re thinking. You will always get all of me, and that includes my lovers. They will protect you with their lives, and…I will do the same for yours.”
“But… You and Ignacio…”
“We have issues because he was an idiot who would have one day gotten you killed the way you were going. But, you’re strong, you’re brave, and I will train you until one day you will not only take me down, but Lio, too.” I swallow and stare into his eyes, my throat tightening as words lodge themselves there like a bitter pill.
Benjamin reaches up and tugs me down to his mouth with his hand at the nape of his neck. “It’s okay,” he whispers against my mouth. “I know how you feel.”
I kiss him deeply, pouring everything I am into him. Knowing this is it for me. Benjamin and Hollis…the only two people on this Earth who can strip me down and make me want to be more than I am.
All of my lovers give me something different, something I didn’t know I needed… Benjamin… He makes me want more than a monster like me should—doesn’t mean I’m going to let him go.
“One day soon,” I say as I pull back from the kiss. “I’m going to mark you right here.” I place my hand over his heart.
“It’s yours. Everything about me is.”
“I know… Which is why, as much as I can’t stand the asshole, I know you won’t leave me behind should you go back to him.”
“Never,” he whispers. “I’m just terrified of making a mistake with either of you.”
“Shh. I’m here. Whenever you have doubts, or insecurities, or feel jealous, I’ll be here for you. Luce della mia vita.”
He grins. “Do I get a translation for that one?”
I shake my head. “Nope. Volevi imparare l'italiano. Ecco come si fa.”
“Asshole.” He laughs.
“You love me anyway.”
“Yeah.” He softens. “I really do.”
