Page 159 of Goodbye Butterfly


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Say yes.

Shrug and throw a joke back at him like I’m still whole, like I’m not two seconds away from collapsing in a pile of too-latefeelings and syrup-soaked memories that still sting behind my eyes.

Instead, I murmur, “I’m fine.”

His gaze lingers. He doesn’t believe me. But he doesn’t push. Just slides a protein bar into my hand and mutters, “Eat. Cry later.”

I blink down at it.

It’s stupid. Small. Pathetic but I could fucking sob at the way kindness suddenly feels like the sharpest weapon in the room.

Outside, the artillery checkpoint fires a warning shot into the distance. The ground shakes. Dust falls from the ceiling. A nurse winces as she tapes down an IV. The lights flicker again.

And still?—

Outside, I can feel him.

Dax.

His presence is heavier than sandbags, pressing against the air like thunder before it breaks.

He’s not watching me.

But I know he knows.

Knows I’m here.

Knows Torres is here.

Knows someone else made me laugh.

I wonder if it kills him.

I wonder if it doesn’t.

And that thought?

Hurts worse than anything else.

He sees it.

The flicker in my throat when I swallow.

The way I keep glancing toward the exit like I’m hoping he’ll come back in.

Or dreading it.

I don’t even know anymore.

Torres leans down, voice low, teasing.

“Who is he?”

I blink.

My jaw clenches.

He doesn’t push because the silence that answers him is louder than a scream and yet—he doesn’t look smug. Doesn’t look like he’s already adding it up in his head. He just tosses a used gauze strip into the bin and says?—