And all that aside, is it my place to tell him anything? Hailey and Char’s family know that I’m the sperm donor. My sister does too, but I haven’t asked who else they’ve shared that information with.
I scrub a hand through my hair. “Fuck, sorry, I know it’s not my secret to tell anyone.”
Hailey laughs. “It’s not a secret, Vic. If anyone asks, then we tell them. We have nothing to hide.” She shrugs, then pats my arm again. “If you want to tell Sean, then tell him.”
“Thanks. I’ll think about it.”
When she winces and rubs her back, my eyes narrow.
“You okay?”
“Yeah, just a bit of backache.” She looks up and rolls her eyes at whatever expression I’m wearing. “Again. I’m. Not. In. Labour.” She punctuates each word with her finger on my chest.
“Fine.” My gaze slips to her belly and I send up a silent prayer that Char’s nan gets better really fucking soon.
I thinkabout what Hailey said for the rest of the afternoon.
I’m still not decided when I see Sean’s car pull up outside the lodge. Is it something I need to share? It’s not like we’re in a serious relationship, but now that the thought’s entered my head, I feel like I’m keeping something from him.
“Hey.” I have the door open before he has the chance to knock. Lucky squeezes past me and settles himself on the rug in front of the sofa.
“Hey, yourself.” Sean points at Lucky. “Is he all right there?”
“Course.” I shiver, because it’s bloody freezing outside and I tug Sean in quickly, shutting the door before any more of the delicious heat from the living room can escape outside.
It has the added effect of pulling him against my chest, and he wastes no time wrapping his arms around me. He stares into my eyes, and it’s like I forget to breathe. “Is this okay?” he murmurs. “I’m not sure what the etiquette is for casual dating.”
I smile at him, cupping his jaw. “I think we can make our own rules, don’t you?” I have no idea what casual dating entails, and to be honest, I don’t really care either. I want to kiss Sean, and so that’s what I’m going to do.
He seems to have the same idea, and we meet in the middle. I have all the curtains closed in the living room, and it’s just as well because the kiss might start off soft and slow, but then Sean backs me up against the nearest wall. His thigh pushes between mine, rubbing against my cock, and I moan into his mouth.
I had every intention of serving him dinner andtalking, but all I want to do now is drag him into the bedroom and get him naked. “Are you hungry?” I push him back just enough to meet his eyes again.
He smirks. “Starving.” He nudges his thigh against me, and my breath hitches.
I slip my hands inside his coat, working them under his jumper until I find warm skin. My fingers skate over solid muscle and it’s a struggle to think of anything buthim. “I brought dinner from the pub.” I can’t believe my voice comes out as steady as it does.
“Sounds good.” Sean’s gaze darkens. “Will it keep?”
“Yes. Absolutely.” I smile at him, and he grins back at me.
And then we’re all hands and kissing as I do exactly as I imagined and drag him down the short hallway towards my bedroom. Clothes litter the floor as we undress each other. It’s messy and uncoordinated, I almost fall over twice, and we’re both laughing by the time Sean pushes me down onto the bed.
We’re both gloriously naked and my blood heats like fire in my veins as he kisses me, his body blanketing mine, fingers tangling in my hair. I’m already achingly hard and Sean is too, by the feel of him, but as much as I want this to last I also want him right fucking now.
We have all night, I remind myself, and my smile widens enough for Sean to draw back and smile down at me.
“What?”
“I was just thinking that we have all night to do this.” I slide my hands down his back to grab his arse. He groans as I rock my hips against him, spreading my legs wide. His head drops to my shoulder and he kisses the base of my throat, then slowly works his way up towards my ear.
“We do,” he whispers, and I shiver. “So what do you want to do first?”
Decisions, decisions.
There are so many things I want to do with Sean,allthe things, in fact, but there’s one thing we never got to do when we were young, and I reallyreallywant to do it now.
If he’s into it.
