“That you’re sliding that fat cock of yours insideme.”
“Eric…” There’s worry in histone.
“It’s fine like this,” I assure him as I put the phone on speaker and set it beside me, stroking my cock with my free hand. “It feels good, Jesse. Remember Carolyn said this could be a good way to help. To play it out likethis.”
And it feels so good. Like when I touch myself, I’m not as concerned since I’m in totalcontrol.
As I play with myself, I find myself enjoying the sense of empowerment. I lick my finger and slide it back down, massaging some more, then easing it in. Excitement rises within me as I imagine Jesse inside me, loving me. I’m free anduninhibited.
I wasn’t willing to do something like this initially, seemed like it would be silly, but in this moment, there’s not a damn thing silly about it. It’s so intuitive, soright.
“What do you want from me now?” heasks.
“I want you inside me. I want to know what that feels like…to be taken byyou.”
I slide my finger farther in, not much, enough to enjoy that pressure. I’m rock-hard, and there’s discomfort, as there always has been and surely always will be, but there’s also this sensation that makes my dick so fucking stiff. This passion, possibly even the idea of overcoming this with him. That we could find a way, sometime in the future, for him to be withinme.
“How do you want it?” Jessepresses.
“I want you filling me the way I’m usually fillingyou.”
I throw my head back as I keep touching myself, wishing for another life, another existence where we could be uninhibited…where I’m not constantly haunted. Where it would be possible to release all the hurt andpain.
I hear him moan, and I’m certain it’s because the fantasy is satisfying to himtoo.
It’s something he craves,desires.
It’s something I wanttoo.
I keep applyingpressure.
“Do you want to be inside me?” Iask.
“Yes…I really wantthat.”
“I can hear how badly you want it. How much you need me. I can just see your face. How you get when you’re all worked up, the way your lips twitch, the way your body quivers. I can imagine you sticking it back in me, wanting me to be all yours. I want thattoo.”
Something about it in this moment, the idea of Jesse dominating me, caring for me, reminds me that I’msafe.
It helps not having the added stress of him beingpresent.
Usually, the work we do feels like work, but this is just fun…freeing.
“I want to feel you come inside me,” I groan, pushing back and stroking my tender prostate as I continue jerking on myshaft.
“Eric…”
“Even the way you say my name, I can tell how close you are…that you can’t hold it in much longer. I know your body so well, the sound of your voice. I know everybreath.”
“I’mcoming.”
Hearing those words is all I need. “I am…” I can’t finish my thought before I’m spraying across my abs, hearing his groans as he experiences his own climax. My body forces its way through a series of jerks and twists. It’s intoxicating…more so than I’m used to, particularly with the stimulation I surprised myselfwith.
I’ve played with my prostate a few times through the work I’ve done with Carolyn, but this experience was somethingspecial.
It takes a moment for us both to settle before Jesse adds, “Wow. Maybe you should go on work trips moreoften.”
“Well, I wasn’t expecting to make my being gone appear more enticing, but it did feelgood.”
