When he saw that glisten in Dedrus’s eyes, he could have sworn that he knew the answer, but he’d believed he’d understood that same look back in the days before Janka.
Janka. Oh, how Janka would rage knowing that Kinzer’s feelings for Dedrus had returned so quickly.
I’m disgusting, Kinzer thought.How could I? How could Dedrus, knowing how I feel? Knowing what I’ve been through?
He started to feel violated. What if Dedrus had plotted this? Had wanted him to fall back in love with him, only to reject him again?
No! Dedrus wouldn’t do that.
He’d been a good friend. He’d been more than that.
Kinzer massaged his fingers through the vee above Dedrus’s ass and offered a soft kiss.
Kinzer’s cock brushed across Dedrus’s leg hairs.
Dedrus set his arms on either side of Kinzer and propped himself up on the cushion beneath them.
His serious expression let Kinzer know that Dedrus had something he wanted to talk about.
He knew that look. It was the same one he’d seen when Dedrus had confessed his feelings to him.
What was he supposed to do? Dedrus had clearly just been caught up in the moment. He didn’t want him, and as soon as someone else came along, he’d find them equally appealing.
No. Dedrus justthoughthe wanted him. For this moment.
Maybe if he was quiet, Dedrus would bail.
He outlined the grooves in Dedrus’s back, offering a smile, ignoring Dedrus’s struggle.
“I know you're going through a lot right now. This probably is too soon to ask.”
Fuck. We’re totally talking about this. Goddammit, Dedrus.
“I just keep wondering if maybe…”
Kinzer watched Dedrus’s thumb trail up his side and slide under his pecs.
Dedrus took a breath and looked back into his eyes. “Do you think there could ever be something like we used to have?”
“Friendship?”
“Is that what you think I mean?”
“Isn’t that what we had?” Kinzer knew better. His comment was a cruel jab that he hoped would hurt Dedrus. If it didn’t, then it would just hurt him.
“No. I know what we had.Youknow what we had.”
Kinzer’s thoughts returned to their nights together, but those memories only brought him pain, and Kinzer wasn’t willing to go back there anymore.
“Whatever we had, it’s not there anymore.”
Dedrus’s beard quivered with his cheeks. His mouth fell open. Sparkling orbs of fluid stirred at the corners of his eyes.
He pushed his arms into the cushion, his legs shuffling over Kinzer as he stood.
“Fine.” He scooped his briefs off the floor and slipped them on. The band snapped against the dip in his waist and clung to that finely curved ass.
This is what he deserves, Kinzer thought.For what he did to me.
