“No. I can call you an Uber or something.”
He freezes, a stunned expression on his face, as if he doesn’tunderstand what just happened. “Where’s the fun in that?” he asks.
“I’m sorry I led you on like that, but I’m your boss. You’re myemployee. That’s all there is to it.” I’m starting down the stairs when I feelhim grab my arm.
I whirl around, my instincts reacting before I can even think itthrough. In a moment, I have my hand around his throat and I’m pinning him to acolumn at the top of the stairs.
“Shit, shit, shit! Sorry,” he says.
Fuck.I release him quickly, staring at my hand in horror, as if itwas responsible for my actions rather than me.
“I’m sorry,” I say. “I just need to go.”
How does he manage to activate every trigger—every defensiveimpulse—within me?
I grab my keys out of my pocket and start through the parkinglot.
My thoughts race. I can’t believe what I just did to him. Hemust think I’m a violent bastard. I crossed the fucking line. Serves me rightfor going out for a drink with a co-worker. I should have told him to fuck off whenhe asked if I wanted to talk. What if he wants to file a complaint for mefucking assaulting him? What if I lose my job over this?
“Reese, Reese,” Jay says behind me. I don’t turn to him. I can’tlook at him after what I just did. “It’s okay. I’m fine. I didn’t mean tosurprise you.”
As much as he tries to soothe me, he can’t understand. It’s notjust about the fact that I hurt him. It’s about being out of control. That I’mso fucking out of my mind that I couldn’t even think before violently respondingto him. That’s not me anymore. I’ve worked so hard to keep myself stable. But Iknow why I’m on such high alert right now. I know what keeps nagging at me thatI refuse to think about. That I never want to think about again. It’s why I’vethrown myself into work the way I have recently. Why I’ve been losing sleep.Why I was reckless enough to come out here today and let my guard down with aguy who reminds me so much of Caleb.
I’m a fucking mess.
“Reese, are you okay?” he asks.
I turn back to him. “I’m fine.” Problem is, I know just how farfrom fine I really am. And I can tell by his skeptical expression that hedoesn’t buy the lie.
“I’m sorry,” he says. “I didn’t mean to make you uncomfortable.I was trying to do the opposite. I just… I assumed since you…” He glances at mycrotch again. “I don’t know what I assumed. I mean, you are gay, right?”
Even though there’s no one else in the parking lot, it’s weirdthat he’s saying it out loud. Like someone’s going to come around the corner andbe freaked out by him broadcasting what we are.
“The only thing that matters to you is that I’m your boss,” Isay.
“Okay, I get it. But if you do want something else, I’m down.”
My erection becomes even more painful. I do want something else.I want it so bad. Not just because he’s hot as hell and because it felt fuckingamazing in the bathroom, but because it would give me an escape from thethoughts that hound me every day.
I should say no and get him off my back.
I walk toward my car, and seemingly beyond my control, like whenI assaulted him, I say, “Come on.” He follows me to my car and hops in with me.
We don’t talk to each other. I’m busy trying to convince myselfwhat a horrible idea this is, but I’ve already surrendered to the primal desirewithin me. We’ve crossed the line. And now that we’re less than a coupleminutes from my house, I’m ashamed of how easily I caved to my horny-as-fuckimpulses.
It’s just been so long since I’ve felt any sort of ease, andafter that kiss, I know he’s what I need right now. He’s the only thing thatcan shake me from my obsessive thoughts about Caleb for even a moment.
I’ve worked so hard to get where I am to fuck it up with thisindiscretion, but reason can’t save me from how much I want his body right now.
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Jay
He blew my mind.
I was relieved when I saw that hard cock in his pants. Figuredwe could give each other some relief. I’ve wanted to give him that ever since Isaw him in so much pain the other day. I’ve wanted to give him as much as heneeded. I figured it’d be hot, but when I kissed him, something about ourchemistry stirred a passion I’m not used to experiencing. I fuck plenty ofguys. Not ashamed of it, which is why I know when it’s beyond the mechanics.And Reese…Oh, God, I’ve got some serious chemistry with him.
He woke up every part of my body, every nerve in my flesh. Iwant the stroke of his strong hands running across my muscles and the taste ofthose lips on my tongue.
