I let him get handsy for a while, not knowing how long his lapse in judgment would last until he remembered my dad and everything that we had built over the years. I didn’t give a flying fuck. I wanted to have him as mine and the role as my right hand. He was good at it, and I trusted him completely—we would just have sex sometimes. I wasn’t an idiot. I knew Cosmo had a realization clock on him. The ticks sounded in my head like it was counting down to doomsday.
Even if I wanted him, even if I was willing to battle my dad for him, I still would not force him to do anything he didn’t want to do. If he backtracked on this, I would let him; I would be pissed, sad, heartbroken, especially now that we’d shared not only our bodies but also our blood. Something we swore not to do again.
I lay back against him, letting the water hit my body as the back of my head rested on his shoulder, and his arms circled my waist to hold me up. I was exhausted. I had some long nights and a weird sleep schedule lately, and it was really fucking with my brain.
Soapy hands lathered my body, cleansing me from head to toe, then he rinsed me clean, turned off the faucet, and lifted me out of the shower. It was short-lived when he stood me in front of the mirror and looked at me like he was mesmerized before turning away with red tipped ears. I peeped him grabbing one of my soft white towels and wrapping it around his waist to cover himself and that deliciously toned ass before snagging another one.No. Don’t go away, I wanted to squeeze you until my heart would burst.
He peeked over his shoulder, catching me spying on his ass, and a small smirk landed on his face. That was until it grew shadowed with concern. “You need some rest, Ray. You look like you’re half dead.”
“Joke’s on you, I am half dead.” I giggled at my own dad joke, and Cosmo tilted his head to the ceiling.
“Ray.” He used his grumpy, no-nonsense tone, and I knew I would not be able to fight him on it. Plus, I didn’t want to. I was so tired my eyes were drooping. I was full of cum and blood, my two favorite things to be stuffed with, and my body wanted to crash.
Cosmo came back over to me, took one look at my state of undress and my lack of trying to do something about it, and smiled as he tugged a towel over me. He even placed it underneath my arms, wrapped it around, and tucked it in tightly. “There. Now you need some sleep.”
My head bobbed as I slumped against the counter. “Yes. I’m so ready for some sleep.” He pulled me into his arms and dragged me out of the room as my mind caught on one thing. “Wait, don’t you want to know—”
As soon as we stepped out the bathroom, a throat cleared, and a light smooth voice called out, “Want to know what, Fierce Girl? Like why you and your brother are walking out of your bathroom practically naked together?”
My head snapped to Avery leaning against the door to my room like he owned the place with a smug caught-ya kind of look.Damn it.
Cosmo growled, and his body vibrated with anger, and I knew he wanted to zoom over and threaten Avery, maybe even kill him, and we really couldn’t have that. I shoved my arm out in front of Cosmo, not taking my eyes off Avery as I faced him. “No. Leave him be.”
I could feel Cosmo’s eyes staring at me in disbelief while Avery’s smile widened as he kicked off the door to stand straight. I have a few reasons for wanting to keep Avery unharmed. One, he was an heir, and I didn’t want to deal with my second in that kind of drama, and, two, I felt something for the guy, and I’d rather be honest than see him get upset.
I mean, I felt a strong everlasting connection with Cosmo, but that was because of the years we’ve had together. With Avery, even with it being so new, he had this push-and-pull attitude I found fun and exciting, and I wanted more. I wanted more of Ax and Falcon, too. Then if we added in Lex ... was I being too greedy?
What I knew for sure was I was too spent to have tricky conversations, to act like I had something to hide. I just wanted to crawl into bed more than anything. I think that was why I said, “Well, that’s because we just fucked. It’s been a long time coming, so it is what it is. I will say, though, you all are good at keeping a girl sated and satisfied.”
I moved to the left, turning into the bedroom part of my room. Two sets of footsteps followed me as I crashed onto my bed face-first. Oh, God, this feels too good.I missed you, bed. I missed your lumps and bumps, just how I liked it.
“What do you mean by ‘you all’?” There was a spark of heat to Cosmo’s tone, and I turned my head to see him standing there like an Adonis, arms crossed as he glared down at me in a towel. I bit my lip, enjoying the view before Avery joined in, smiling.
“What he said.”
I rolled my eyes. “Wouldn’t you rather know where I was?”
At the same time, like they were twins with telepathy, they answered, “No.”
Cosmo followed with, “We will get to that part next.”
Like I said, I was tired and wasn’t in the mood for evasive conversations, so I rattled out, “You both, Falcon and Ax.” I stuck my arm out and circled my finger in emphasis. “You all.” I turned away, crawling up to the top of my bed in desperate need to rest my weary head on that plump, soft squishiness.
“You have been with all of them, Ray?!”
I quickly turned around, cold fury lined my voice as I responded to Cosmo’s outrage. “Hey! You don’t get to say shit. That, right there”—I lifted my finger to the wall shared by my bedroom and the bathroom—“just fucking happened. You have noclaimto anything,brother.” I knew that was a low blow, especially when he flinched like I just hit him, but I was pissed at his accusing tone. How dare he try to blame me for anything.
I turned to Avery. “And you.” Instead of the accusatory attitude like Cosmo, Avery had his hands in his slack pockets, smiling at me like he was enjoying himself. “We made no promises, no words, nothing that said we were exclusive or more than just the amazing fuck that it was.”
Avery nodded, his smile turning lewd as he agreed. “It was amazing, wasn’t it.”
I smirked back at him, reminiscing over my airtime with the faerie when he followed with “Plus, I know the deal. I wasn’t expecting anything. In fact, I enjoy the competition. It makes for hotter sex, wanting to prove myself over and over again.” He gave Cosmo a pointed look, almost like he dared him to say something different.
I knew what that was—a challenge with pretty words pointed at Cosmo. If he agreed, then he was saying he was fine with me sleeping with other men, and if he didn’t, then that meant he was intimidated by them and lacking in comparison to the rest of them. I had to hand it to Avery, it was a good play.
It was at that moment Ax and Falcon entered my room without a knock or invitation, and I threw up my arms.What the fuck was up with all these men? Is my closed door just a suggestion?
I felt bad for Cosmo as his body grew rigid and he became tongue-tied. “Why don’t you go get Rick, I only want to say this once. Kay?” He hesitated, glaring at the others before getting a grip, nodded as he exited, not looking at anyone, and I sighed. This would be annoying. I knew it.
