I was ravenous, but I didn’t let it show. I sped our grinding up a fraction, keeping an unhurried pace. I pressed my hips down more, and Crew ground against me, chasing his pleasure.
With a light suck to his bottom lip, I whispered, “Give in to the pleasure. This is how it can feel. Doesn’t it feel fucking amazing?”
“Price, I’m gonna come. Please, I’m gonna come. Faster.” Crew rambled desperately, but I shook my head.
“Not faster, gorgeous. Not rougher. I want you to come just like this.” Sweat dripped off my forehead and onto his. I watched as his eyelids closed and clenched. I could feel his body begin to tense.
“That’s it. Surrender to it.” My words were just moans, almost incomprehensible. I pushed us closer, the muscles in my thighs shaking.
My entire body lit up, my nerve endings tingling as my balls started to draw up. The way Crew began panting against me, crying my name as he begged for his orgasm, drove me fucking crazy.
I let pleasure take me. Just as I was encouraging Crew to do, I welcomed it.
I didn’t chase it.
I created it.
I gave it to him and basked in it myself.
Crew’s cock jerked as he arched back, trapping us impossibly close. His neck leaned with him, the muscles there tightening as he opened his mouth on a silent scream like he was stuck in time. Stuck feeling the pleasure, a never-ending loop that forced his body to freeze.
Heat pooled beneath me as his condom filled, the feeling bringing mecloser to my release. He drove his hips up and down, his entire body shaking.
The tingling from before came back, more intense with each second that passed. I took my hand away, twisting my fingers into Crew’s wavy hair as he rode his orgasm.
Just as Crew sucked in a deep breath and began to cry the remainder of his pleasure, I reached the pinnacle of mine. Light flashed behind my eyes, and I stopped breathing for what felt like a lifetime. My entire body clenched before suddenly relaxing, forcing my head to Crew’s shoulder as I thrust through something so powerful, I didn’t know it was possible.
The air in my lungs got caught, a pathetic sound escaping me as I tried and failed to breathe again. The world spun around me as my body lost equilibrium. I felt myself tilting as I pushed through the aftershocks, halting only when it became too much.
And then I collapsed. Unable to hold myself up any further, I sank against Crew as my heart pounded, and I tried to ward off any dizziness.
We panted together, his arms coming around my shoulders as we basked in the afterglow. Our bodies were so sweaty we practically stuck together. Neither of us attempted to move, even though it felt slightly disgusting.
Crew was the first to speak. It wasn’t words, more than a soft, heartbreaking cry. I jolted up, looking at him. Tears were falling down his cheeks as he looked at me, eyes wide and stunned.
“What’s wrong? Did I hurt you?” I cradled his cheek, wiping my thumb over the tears there as I surveyed his body. I knew I shouldn’t have agreed—he was hurt. My body weight alone could’ve hurt him further.
He shook his head, forcing his eyes shut. “You didn’t hurt me, I just—” He cut himself off, his voice cracking. “I don’t fucking know. I literally don’t fucking know.”
I cradled him, bringing us onto our sides. I slowly took the condoms off, tying them and setting them on the edge of the bed. Crew landed underneath my chin, his cheek to my chest as he cried.
“You didn’t hit me.”
To say I was stunned would be an understatement. He said it as if it were one of life’s greatest mysteries. “No, I didn’t hit you.”
He shook in my hold. “You didn’t hit me last time either.”
I remembered how he ran from me last time. Now that I knew him better, I could see it for what it was.
Fear.
He looked terrified when he ran. Everything was fine, and then he’d suddenly freak out, booking it before I could get any understanding of what I’d done wrong.
“I can’t—” he started, only to cut himself off. “Damn it.”
“Help me understand, Crew.” I carded my fingers through his sweaty hair, trying to comfort him.
I heard him sniffle. “You wouldn’t be able to understand even if I could tell you.”
