“Come inside someone. It’s fucking hot.” I can’t take my eyes off her. My fingers find the clasp of her bra and unclip it. I really should have done that earlier. I got so carried away.
“Shower?” Hayley says.
“Yes.” I look at the time as I remove the watch from my wrist and curse under my breath. “Fuck.”
“What’s wrong?”
“I’m supposed to be at a fundraiser in two hours.” I sigh.
“Okay, so shower and get dressed.”
“I can’t take you back out there, Hayley. I don’t know what fucker is trying to get to me and I’m not going to risk you getting hurt again.”
“That’s why I’m here, to accompany you to these events, August. Let’s just go. I’m sure it’ll be fine. They’re not going to try twice in the same day, are they?”
“They could. And that’s not why you’re here anymore. You’re here because you’re mine,” I tell her.
Chapter Nineteen
If I had known showers with August were so much fun, I would have jumped in a whole lot sooner. I don’t think my body has ever been so thoroughly cleaned after being so thoroughly fucked.
August left me alone to finish getting ready. This hair doesn’t dry itself well. While I’m waiting for my curler to heat up, I send Jade a message. I need someone to talk some sense into me, because all my brain cells seem to go out the window as soon as I get in the same room as that man.
Me:
What if the season of sin wasn’t just for the season?
My phone rings almost immediately and I answer it on speaker. “Hey.”
“You fucked him, didn’t you? Of course you did. And now that you’ve had a taste, you want to keep the devil god,” Jade grumbles into the phone.
“Actually, it’s him,” I tell her, as I start the process of curling the ends of my hair.
“What’s him?” she asks.
“He wants to keep me.” I sigh. I’m not sure if I should believe him. Why would he want to keep me? “He says it’s not fake anymore, Jade, so what the hell am I doing?”
“Apparently a devil god.” She laughs at her own joke.
“I’m serious! I’m in over my head here. You know what happens to me. I get attached and… that never ends well,” I remind her.
“Okay, so it’s not the German hottie Christmas fling we were planning. But tell me… was it good?”
“The best I’ve ever had,” I whisper. Though I’m not sure why. No one is here. I’m sure August is busy out there with Colton, planning who knows what. “Oh god, I’m screwed, Jade.”
“It would seem that way.” Once again, she laughs at her lame joke. “Okay, it’s not that bad. Let’s think about this rationally. You’re there because the ass backed you into a corner and didn’treally give you much of a choice. He is the one saying he wants to keep you. That’s not you, babe. And it’s August Wade. Seriously, Hayley, even if he did break up with you, it’s not like you would really be able to do anything. Because again, it’s August Wade. If the guy didn’t want someone getting close to him, they wouldn’t be able to,” she explains.
I would love to believe her, but I can’t. He was just shot at today, and the other night, he was stabbed. People do get close, too close. And now all I’m thinking about is how I can keep him away from everyone else.
Shit, I really am spiraling. This is why I told him I wasn’t a good girlfriend. I obsess. And that obsession turns into a light stalking here and there. I’ve had boyfriends I didn’t even like that much and I still obsessed over them.
It’s a trait I’m not proud of, and one I’ve avoided for a while by not dating at all. But now, it’s happening again. I’m drowning in everything that is August.
“I don’t know, Jade.” I shake my head and try to steady my breathing. “You have to promise me something…”
“Depends on what it is…” she replies.
“If it happens, if I spiral too far, make sure you admit me again,” I tell her.
