Maxwell flinched. Trish’s voice had an endearing way of accenting certain words depending on her current frame of mind. But by the way she’d just spiked the wordhell,he’d really pissed her off. “Faolan and Ciara are family to me.” Noting Ciara’s triumphant glower, Maxwell waved a hand toward Faolan. “Well, Faolan is family to me. Ciara is more like punishment for my sins.”
Ciara snorted and dismissed Maxwell’s words with a flit of the knotted towel. “Don’t be embarrassed, Trish. We’ll ensure that anything discussed in this room—” She gave her husband a meaningful look before she settled onto the bench.“Staysin this room.”
Maxwell risked resting a hand across Trish’s clenched fist. “I am an honorable man, sweetling. I would never spout details of anything that should be kept between the two of us. I was merely pointing out to Faolan and Ciara that I would never abandon my child to the future and I was certain ye would feel the same.” There. That sounded so much better. Surely, Trish would see the sense of it now. Maxwell shifted on the hard bench and waited for what seemed like an eternity.God’s teeth.Why didn’t the woman say something instead of sitting there with her hands knotted into fists?
Trish’s gaze lowered as she slid her hands out from under Maxwell’s and folded them in her lap. “I will still be going back to the future, Maxwell.” The pink tip of her tongue swiped nervously across her lower lip. “And you don’t have to worry about the possibility of your child growing up without a father.” Inhaling a deep shaking breath, Trish raised her gaze and turned to face him. “I’m not able to have children.”
An uncomfortable silence filled the room and stole the warmth from the air. Trish wrapped her hands around her steaming mug of tea and took a hesitant sip. Her gaze remained fixed on the amber liquid as she lowered the cup to the table. “Well, that was a conversation killer.”
Maxwell stared at the flush of red creeping up Trish’s creamy throat. She couldna have children? Barren? How? “How do ye know…” Maxwell struggled, both sympathy for Trish and frustration with not understanding vying for possession of his mind. “How do ye know ye canna have children? Have ye already tried?” There. He’d said it. He didn’t truly want to think of Trish having children with anyone but himself but he had to be realistic. After last night, he knew for certain she hadn’t been a virgin but he’d prefer not to know the intimate details of her past. “Trish?” he leaned closer and whispered her name when she remained silent.
“Didn’t you notice my lovely scar the plastic surgeons weren’t able to erase?” Trish refused to look Maxwell in the face. Instead, she leaned forward, forearms on the table, staring down into the mug she circled with her hands.
Maxwell glanced at Ciara, then Faolan, frowning when they both slightly shook their heads. What the hell was she talking about? A scar? “All I recall about your…um…body”—Maxwell shifted uncomfortably in his seat—“is the beauty I beheld.”
An almost imperceptible smile quivered at one corner of Trish’s mouth as she rhythmically smoothed her thumbs in circles against the sides of the mug. “Well.” Trish bowed her head and cleared her throat. “It was pretty dark in the library last night.”
“I think we’d best leave.” Faolan pulled on Ciara’s arm while rising from his chair.
Ciara pulled her elbow out of her husband’s grasp, crossing both arms over her chest. “Only if Trish doesn’t need us here. It’s her decision. I will not have her thinking we’d desert her or that we do not care.”
Trish finally raised her head, huffing a humorless laugh as she rubbed a trembling hand across her eyes. “You’re more than welcome to stay. I feel as close to the two of you as I do Nessa and Latharn.”
Ciara and Faolan exchanged troubled looks and settled back down at the table.
Maxwell smoothed his hand across the satin of the well rubbed wood of the table. If only he’d known. A knot tightened in the center of his chest. He wished he’d never broached the subject. “What are ye tryin’ to tell me, Trish? Just come out and say it.”
A deep sigh escaped Trish as she turned to face him. “Several years ago…when I was much younger and in college, a man attacked me.”
Rage clouded Maxwell’s vision with a red haze, pumping a burning thirst for vengeance through his body. He bit back the roar he longed to release. Instead, he jerked his head forward with a stiff nod. “Go on.”
Trish tilted her head, closing her eyes as though she couldn’t bear to see anyone’s expression while she told her tale. “He forced me by knife point into an abandoned building, raped me, sliced me into a bloody pulp, and then planned on torturing me until I gave up and died.”
“If I’d been there, I’d ha’ killed the bastard…with the cruelest death possible.” Maxwell forced the words out, his voice rasping with the sense of injustice screaming in his head. “I suppose the cur left ye for dead?”
Trish shook her head, tracing a finger around the rim of the cup as she sat straighter on the bench. “No. Nessa heard my screams. She saved my life by driving a spike through the back of his head with a well aimed piece of lumber.” Releasing the mug, Trish flattened her hands atop the table, staring down at her fingers as she spoke. “She saved my life, but I’m afraid she didn’t get there in time to save my body from a great deal of damage.”
“I hope the bastard suffers a painful eternity searing deep in the bowels of hell.”
“Me too, Maxwell.” Trish finally met his gaze. “But that’s why you don’t have to worry about any children from me.”
Maxwell scooped Trish’s ice cold hand between his own, rubbing the tops of her knuckles with his thumb. “I wasna worried, my dear sweet lass. I was just saying that I’d never abandon ye to raise a bairn alone.”
A pained expression tightened around Trish’s mouth as she avoided Maxwell’s gaze. She drew in a deep shuddering breath and stared down at their linked hands. “I have to return to the future. No matter what happened between us last night. I’ve got to go back to my life.”
Maxwell settled Trish’s hands down into her lap, hesitating for a brief moment while he stared at the top of her curly head. If only he could see inside her mind. Maybe then he could figure out why she was so dead set on returning to her time.Dammit.Releasing her hands, he rose from the bench. “Ye are mistaken, lass. Ye need to stay. Whether ye can bear any children or not, ye now belong here just as much as I do.”
Trish raised her head and finally met his gaze. Maxwell couldn’t bear the denial in her eyes, couldn’t bear the determination in the tilt of her head. He rose from the bench and stormed from the room before Trish had a chance to reply.
ChapterTwelve
Adeep voice, rhythmic with a patient sing-song cadence, murmured through the wide seams of the weathered door. Trish paused, a hand resting against the rough gray wood and listened with her head bowed. Her heart fluttered right before it sank like a weight to the pit of her stomach. She’d recognize those rumbled “r’s” anywhere. Trish closed her eyes and fought against the quivering excitement Maxwell’s voice always sent tingling through her.Damn the man.She’d never had this problem before. How had Maxwell seemingly connected—no, not connected—gained control? Yes. Gained control over every part of her so that even the sound of his voice sent her into a tailspin?
Easing back a step, she stared at the door, willing the ancient wood to provide all the answers. Was she ready for another confrontation with Maxwell? Could she possibly win? Trish pinched the bridge of her nose, massaging the burning corners of her weary eyes and tried to ignore the nagging voice in her head hissing out the truth.No. I’ll never win against Maxwell’s insistence that I stay, because I really don’t want to go.
Trish pressed her palms against her temples then smoothed shaking fingers through her errant curls. She couldn’t handle another shouting match right now. She was too weary from helping Ramsay pore over all the spell books in the tower. And they’d found nothing. Trish massaged the tensed muscles at the back of her neck, wincing at the tenderness of the knots.
Maybe they should just give up. Hours of squinting at faded text by the golden light of the iron candelabra had only rewarded her with a stiff back, grainy eyes, and about an hour’s worth of a head-bobbing doze. And they’d still come away empty-handed.
