I know it’ll hurt, but it’s worse than I thought, and I cry out in pain. He freezes and kisses me softly as he reaches betweenus and brushes his finger across my clit again. My eyes roll into the back of my head as tingles kiss across my body, and for a moment, I go off into another reality where nothing but wonderfulness exists. But then he sinks all the way in, and the pain returns. I scratch at his shoulder blades through the fabric of his shirt as I struggle not to breathe.
He stays motionless. “Maddy…” He sounds torn.
“Just go quickly,” I sputter. “Please.
He nods and then complies, rocking in and out of me, his hipbones biting against mine. At first it hurts, but then an orgasm begins to build inside me and bleeds away the pain. As I fly toward the stars again, I can’t help thinking that if this were a moment between him and me, it would’ve been nearly perfect. I try to clasp onto that as his movements become jerkier and I feel him come inside me. That’s what breaks me, though, and my lip quivers as tears spill from my eyes.
Finn has his face buried against my neck as he clutches the blanket. He kisses the side of my neck, but when a sob escapes my lips, he jerks back. He takes one look at my face, and horror consumes his expression.
I’m about to tell him that it’s okay, that these tears aren’t his fault, that he was as careful as he could be with me in this situation when the door opens, and Mr. Averson strolls into the room.
He lets out a slow clap as he stalks across the room toward us.
Finn positions himself in front of me, blocking him from my view. “Get the fuck out of here until she gets dressed.”
“Quit being dramatic,” he tells Finn. “Both of you get dressed, and then Maddison will be seen by a doctor. Although after that performance, I know you fucked her.”
“Fuck you,” Finn snaps, then lunges at him.
Even though I desperately want to see Mr. Averson get hit, I don’t want his society brigade coming in here and beating up Finn, so I grab Finn’s arm and pull him back to me.
“He’s not worth it,” I tell him when he stares confusedly at me.
“He might be,” Finn mumbles with his lip curled.
“I need you,” I say more quietly. “So please don’t get your ass kicked.”
That softens his anger a bit.
We get dressed, then, and since Mr. Averson refuses to leave the room, Finn stands in front of me while I put my pants back on. I’m sore, and blood is smeared on my thighs and on Finn’s cock, a reminder of what just happened. I continue to try to disassociate the best that I can as we follow Mr. Averson out of the room and down a slender hallway that’s lined with closed doors. However, I have a feeling that once I’m alone, I’m going to crumble.
CHAPTER 13
MADDISON
I fallinto a state of shock as I’m taken to an examination room where I’m asked to strip my pants and panties off. I zone out when the doctor comes in and performs the examination, and float in and out of reality.
I’m on the examination bed…
The doctor injects me with something, but I’m not sure what…
I’m numbly putting on my clothes…
Mr. Averson comes in…
The doctor says something…
I’m walking…
Then I'm in a room with a bed…
Again, Mr. Averson says something, but I don’t know what…
And then I pass out into the bed…
I dream of darkness. I dream of pain and blood-stained white dresses. I dream of a baby crying and of my life shattering around me in fragments of glass that show me what was and what will never be.
Through the haze, I feel the warmth of strong arms wrapping around me. I’m not certain who it is, but their scent brings me abit of comfort, so I curl into them and let the drowsiness tug me under.
