“Stop cursing, Willow.”
“Why can’t I? I gave my virginity to a lying piece of shit!”
“I’m not lying. I honestly didn’t remember.”
“And so all of a sudden you had an epiphany? Why did you ask me whether she was back from Cleveland the other day? Did you remember then? Did you remember that you finger fucked my roommate and still slept with me without telling me?”
His head drops.
And my heart sinks.
I’m not sure what part of his story is truth and what is false, but one thing is for sure, he knew something before he took me to that hotel room and for that I can never forgive him.
“This conversation is over,” I tell him, settling myself down to a deathly calm. “We’re done. Don’t call me. Don’t text me. Forget about me like you seem to do with all the others.”
I turn back in the direction of the dorm.
“Willow, please.”
He grabs me from behind around the waist, and the familiar scent of cedar hits me hard.
I can’t stop the tears even if I wanted to.
“Let me go,” I croak.
“You have to believe me.”
“I do believe you.”
“Then why are you throwing me away like this?”
“Why did you take me to that hotel room?”
“To make love to you.”
“You should have told me this before we did that, Jackson.”
I can’t stop crying now.
“Please don’t cry, baby.”
He turns me around to face him, forcing my head up to look into his bloodshot eyes.
“I love you and I’m fucking sorry. If I could turn back time, I would, but I can’t. All I can do is to be a better person for myself and for you.”
The sounds of his breath are harsh, like he’s a fire-breathing dragon. My heart recognizes that he’s sincere, but it’s all just too little, too late.
“I’m glad you were able to turn yourself around, but sometimes there are mistakes we make in life that can be forgiven but not forgotten. Now let me go, Freak.”
I immediately see it in his eyes. The moment when he finally understands that this is no-win situation. He’s hurt me. And he’s lost me. And it’s just something the two of us will have to get over in time.
Lucky for him, he’s got a campus full of fans to help him get over me.
But what do I have?
Willow
WEEK FOUR
