Or maybe not. She was too tight for anything wider than her fingers to have ever been there. I didn’t realize it at the time, but…
It was obvious, wasn’t it? The shyness, the clumsiness. How fast she got wet. How fast she came for me.
That’s when the other half of my brain floods with guilt.
Sima is a virgin.I turn those words over in my head.Fuck. She’s a virgin. Sweet, naive, innocent.
And I just tainted her.
A surge of possessiveness tears through me. My cock is so hard it’s fucking aching. No one else has had her. No one else has touched her where I did. No one else has fucked her.
No. One. Else.
It shouldn’t matter. Normally, it wouldn’t. But the idea of Sima being so wholly mine, ready to get pregnant with my child, to let me be the first to breach her… it sets off something primal inside me.
I want it.
I wanther.
And yet, I can’t let myself take her. I’m already using her by dragging her into my war with the Danilos—now, I’m going to use her body, too?
When she’s a fuckingvirgin?
I sit up before I know what I’m doing.
“Petyr?” Sima’s brow creases with worry. “Is something wrong? Did I?—?”
“No. I— Fuck.”
Sima’s heartbroken face doesn’t help matters.
Before I can change my mind, I wrench myself away. Back to my feet.
I barely feel myself move towards the door. Barely feel my fingers close around the handle, still sticky with the taste of her.
Barely hear the door slam shut behind my back, sealing her on the other side.
It’s for the best this way.
For a second there, I almost lost control.
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SIMA
I stare at the door long after it slams shut behind Petyr’s back. Then, when I’m done feeling sorry for myself, I lie back against the pillows.
I’m still trying to catch my breath after… well,after.My skin feels too warm, too tingly, my body heavy and boneless. I’m molten wax dripping down a candle that’s burning way too hot.
Okay, maybe let’s not think of stuff dripping off of phallic objects, yes?
I sink my face into my hands and groan. I should be horrified by what just happened. Petyr Gubarev, public enemy number one, just fingered me to orgasm. Someone should slap some cuffs on me right now.
Ms. Danilo, you are under arrest for treasonous fuckery. Keep your hands where I can see them. More importantly, keep your legs shut.
What the hell is wrong with me?
So, so much is wrong with you,my conscience dryly informs me.And fuck her, she’s right. Because I didn’t just let Petyr do what he did—Ilikedit. Liked the way he touched me, how his hands made me feel. His mouth. The look in his churning eyes.
