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ELSIE
I nearly takeout the mailbox on my way up the drive. Tires skid, snow sprays, and the engine groans like it wants to give up before I do. Frustrated and despondent, I let my forehead drop to the steering wheel.
When I finally muster the courage to glance up, my whole face crumples.
The inn before me has betrayed the legend in my memory. It was once a charming New England marvel, ivy-draped and firelit, full of love and secrets and cinnamon air. The kind of place you’d travel across state lines to visit, if only to take a few pictures.
Now, it just looks like a house. Sagging in the cold. Windows shuttered. The porch sunk slightly to one side, bracing itself against the season. An old building in a quiet town, meant for quiet lives.
The magic that once ran through its bones seems to have gone quiet, too. I can’t feel it anymore, and judging by the obvious state of disrepair, I assume it’s dormant. Maybe it’s faded with time, or maybe it’s just gone for me. Maybe I lost the right to feel it.
Since I left Blue Willow eight years ago, I’ve grown taller, tougher, and harder to impress. I traded wonder for logic, swapped whimsy for work ethic. I learned to lean on what could be proven. That’s what holds up under pressure. That’s what pays rent.
It’s hard to trust in magic when the rest of the world runs on deadlines and utility bills.
And yet, Blue Willow has never been ordinary. In this town, honey from the local apiary does more than sweeten tea; it can ease pain. Plums left to steep in the sun can mend wounds. It’s magic that isn’t loud but sits quietly beneath everyday life. The people who live here know it. Outsiders don’t.
Everywhere else, life keeps moving forward. Ordinary and unenchanted. Cities run on clocks. Suburbs run on routines. If there’s magic beyond this place, it’s buried deep in some town I’ve never heard of.
But this inn, like Blue Willow itself, seems to stand still. Winter snow crusts along the porch roof. Blue shutters lean against ivy-covered stone. It’s still postcard pretty—Wicklow County in its full Hallmark glory—but the windows are dark now. A hush has settled over a house that once buzzed with light and laughter and the clatter of teacups.
Heart pounding, I kill the engine and unclip my seat belt. The driver’s-side door is open, but I stay where I am, both hands wrapped around the wheel. I’m not ready to step out. Not ready to pretend I still belong here.
As a child, during long weekends, holidays, and summer breaks, my grandmother’s inn became my refuge. A big blue house that creaked and sighed on its own. It was wonderful; it was my safe space.
I didn’t know then that my mom was pawning me off on family because she didn’t want to—didn’t know how to—dealwith me. I just knew I loved it here. The house. The town. Everyone who made it feel full.
It’s been a long time—too long—but my name is still carved into the mailbox. My handprint is still pressed into the concrete stepping stones leading up to the porch, shallow now, half-filled with ice.
When I asked Bobby, Blue Willow’s mayor and our longtime family friend, about staying in my old room, he warned me the heat’s unreliable.The house has slipped into disrepair. I shouldn’t expect much. It’s an old, particular house, he said,but the bones are good. Stubborn the way things are when someone once loved them a whole lot.
I suspect my grandmother, Elspeth Sr., would roll over in her grave if she heard him talk about the inn slipping like that. And if she knew I was here now—studying the gutters, judging the furnace, mentally adding up costs—she might haunt me on principle.
If she knew I was here at all.
We hadn’t spoken since the fight the night before I fled. I didn’t know I’d be gone so long. Didn’t know I could hold a grudge that thoroughly, that quietly. I was eighteen when I packed my bags and told her I didn’t believe in fairy tales anymore. When I left this town and never came back.
Now, I slam the car door hard, like the sound might shake some courage loose. The wind bites at my neck as I cross the drive, ducking my head against the cold. My suitcase wheels drag through the snow until they quit entirely, so I haul it up the stairs.
The front door’s unlocked, same as always. The brass handle sticks the way it used to, too. I have to hip-check it open, and for a second, I almost hear her voice behind me.
Don’t force it, Elsie Love. Ask it nicely.
I glance over my shoulder just in case. But there’s no one there. Snow drifts in quiet sheets across the path. No Elspeth. No familiar cardigan-clad silhouette. Only me, a grown woman standing uncertain in the cold.
Inside, it smells like pine, lemon polish, and the faintest trace of old sugar. The kind that lingers in wooden drawers and tea towels. My grandmother baked often, and it’s a wonder the scent hasn’t faded.
Everything she packed into this place—every last inch of it—is still here.
The soft green walls, lined with old calendar pages and pinned-up postcards. The lamp in the corner with its crochet fringe and stained-glass shade the color of hard candy. Shelves crowded with recipe books, chipped teacups, and tiny porcelain animals. Bundles of dried flowers hanging from hooks near the ceiling. Tins of loose-leaf tea stacked in precarious towers beside a row of honey jars.
And still, it’s quiet. Nothing like it used to be when I first arrived.
Those few days each winter break, before the deep cold set in and before January’s loneliness crept in behind my ribs, are sharp in my memory. I remember exactly how it felt, down to the way my heart would stumble when the door opened.
Grandma would call to me from the kitchen, her voice bright with welcome. I’d kick off my shoes too fast, racing toward the hug that always came next. She’d kiss both cheeks, tap my nose, then shoo me toward the cookies on the counter, even though dinner was already in the oven.
