Letting go, believing him, trusting that Kai would never cheat on me, never leave me, and never want anyone else? Releasing what I realized was a lifelong fear, sent joy bubbling through me as if I were a shaken bottle of champagne about to pop.
Was it possible to fall in love in one day? I didn’t know, but this tightness in my chest was suspicious as hell. If I wasn’t in love, why couldn’t I stop staring at his bearded jaw, wanting to kiss him? Why was I acutely aware of everywhere his warm skin pressed against mine? Why did I want to rip off the tank top and shorts I wore and climb all over him like a wild animal in heat? I needed his cock inside me, filling me up, stretching me open, making me lose control.
I didn’t want to waste another moment on analyzing the connection between us. Questioning it. Wondering if it was real or if he was going to change his mind tomorrow.
The beast wasn’t human. Kai wasn’t a normal man. He was a warlord. An alien. I didn’t have to play by my old, human rules with him.
I ran my thumb along his lower lip, mesmerized by that single point of contact. “I want you, Kai.”
His eyes darkened. His already hard cock jumped where it was pressed under my hip. “Tell me what you want.” The dare made my head spin almost as much as the hand moving up my thigh to cup my ass.
“I want to see my sister.”
He shuddered and I watched him pull back, bottle up his desire to make me happy. “Then we shall go.”
“After Kai. I want you first.” Sex. Cuddles. Food. Maybe a nap, then more sex. I’d fit my sister in there somewhere. Besides, if Tazo was as smoking hot as Kai, she was probably busy.
The thought made me smile as I moved under our cozy blanket until I straddled his hips, his hard cock rubbing my wet core through the thin material of my shorts. He was so damn tall I had to choose, kiss him, or rub my pussy on his hard length. So unfair.
I wanted both.
Rising on my knees, I wrapped my arms around his head and pulled his lips to mine. The kiss made my head spin, my heart physically ache. Sex with the beast had been raw and wild, but I didn’t know him. The beast was pure lust. Instinct. This was something else.
This hurt in a way I didn’t understand but never wanted to live without. For the first time I gave myself to someone without fear. I didn’t have to hold back or protect the deepest parts of my heart. I didn’t have to worry about him changing his mind, leaving me or cheating on me. He was mine, for keeps. Forever.
I gave up touching him just long enough for him to pull my tank top off, over my head. The blanket fell to the floor, forgotten. The moment my breasts were exposed, he leaned me back and took a nipple into his mouth. I arched into him, demanding more as he kissed his way from side to side, paying equal attention to the sensitive peaks. I was so wet and needy, my pussy lips ached and pounded in time to my rushing pulse, my skin so sensitive the silken strands of his hair sliding between my fingers made me gasp. Everything in my body was on overload, circuits about to blow.
“Kai.”
“Hmmm.” Guess it was hard for him to form words with his tongue busy sucking my nipple.
“I’m—I’m not on birth control.” We’d had wild, beast sex once already. That had been totally unplanned. Unexpected. Irrational. I couldn’t do this again, not knowing what he wanted. I wanted a family, a big family. Now that I knew Kai was rich and we could afford to give our kids a good life, I didn’t care if we had five or six little ones. But what if he?—
He lifted his head and our gaze locked, both of us breathing hard. “Do you wish to have children?”
“Do you?”
“I want you, mate. If children will make you happy, I will be happy. If you do not wish to be a mother, I am content sharing my life with you. You do not understand the truth of our bond. You are my life. Your happiness is my happiness. If you bless me with children, I will love and protect them as I do you.”
Okay… so, he did want babies? “Okay. I want to have a family.”
“Then I do as well.”
“But do you want a family now? Like right now? Because I could get pregnant.”
He lifted me until I stood on the sofa cushion and grinned up at me as he pulled my shorts down my legs. I stepped out of them and stood naked before him. He leaned forward and pressed a kiss to my abdomen where, someday, our child would grow. “I am ready to live. For many years I accepted my impending execution. I had given up hope. The beast found you. Claimed you. Our devotion to you goes beyond emotion or logic to the core of what makes me a warlord. I will love our children no matter when they arrive. If you are asking me to share life with you, now or in the future makes no difference. My answer will always be yes.”
No one I’d ever heard of ever said things like that and meant it. Not like Kai. His dark eyes caught mine and would not release me. I couldn’t look away, as if he willed me to see into his soul and understand.
My throat swelled with emotions I didn’t want to inspect too closely. What was I supposed to say? What could I say that wouldn’t sound ridiculous and shallow after that?
Luckily, Kai blinked, releasing me. I closed my eyes and took a shuddering breath as his lips moved back and forth over my stomach. I gasped when he slipped two fingers inside my tight pussy.
His groan made my legs tremble. “Gods, female, you are so wet. So fucking hot and ready for me.”
“Yes.”
Holding my ass with one hand so I wouldn’t fall back, he wiggled the fingers inside me and leaned forward, closing his mouth over my clit. My body danced on the edge, had been acutely aware of him—his heat, his smell, his strength—for so long, my emotions so powerful and out-of-control, I had no defense. Within seconds an orgasm rippled through me. I hoped the walls were soundproof because I had no hope of calling back the keening cry that left my throat.
