I've cycled through so many emotions, I don't know which one I feel anymore except that I don't feel like running now.
I feel like waiting to find out how this goes down and whether Dante can be victorious.
Dante notices my yawn immediately, and he stands and walks around the table.
"You can go to bed. We'll finish here."
"Are you sure you don't need me?"
"I'm sure. You've done enough." He takes my hand and kisses my forehead. "Come, let me get you to bed."
The other men don't look up from the map.
I stand and Dante walks me to the door.
He steps into the hallway with me and closes the door behind us.
"Thank you," he says quietly.
"I didn't do anything. I just sat there."
"You gave us the information we needed and if this is successful, it will be because of you."
I want to say something about what he told me earlier, but those words are still ringing in my ears and I don't know how to start.
He must see the conflict on my face because he steps closer and cups my cheek.
"Get some rest. Tomorrow's going to be difficult."
I nod and turn toward the stairs, but I can't make myself walk up them.
I stand at the bottom and stare at the steps.
My chest feels tight, and my hands won't stop shaking.
I don’t want to lie down without him.
I know I won't get to sleep, so I stand there feeling stuck and afraid.
Dante walks to the stairs and stands next to me with his hand on my lower back as he calls for Marta. She appears looking concerned.
"Help Angelica to bed," he says. "Make sure she rests."
Marta nods and walks over to me.
She wraps an arm around my shoulders and says, "Come,Cara. Let's get you upstairs."
I let her guide me up the stairs to Dante's room, where I guess she assumes I've been sleeping, and she helps me into bed.
She pulls the blanket over me and sits on the edge of the mattress in a very motherly way.
"He'll be alright," she says softly. "Dante always finds a way."
"How do you know?"
"Because I've worked for him for ten years. I've seen him survive things that would've killed other men."
She pats my hand and stands, then turns off the light and closes the door.
