The room grew hotter as we danced. Romeo had his hands all over Levi as they danced next to us.
“Ready for a drink?” Ryatt asked.
I tapped Levi on the shoulder and pointed to the corner of the room. We shifted through the crowd making our way back to our table. Hana and Pippa laughed as they sang along to Lady Gaga, clearly feeling good.
Dozer and Blade stood. “We’re going out for a smoke,” Blade said.
Romeo kissed Levi. “Order another drink while I go with them.”
“He wants you drunk tonight when you use his dick to sing karaoke,” Hana said, then she and Pippa laughed harder. Clearly, I wasn’t in on the inside joke.
“You coming?” Romeo asked Ryatt.
“Yeah,” Ryatt said.
“I need to pee.” Levi sidled around the table.
“I’ll come with you,” I said. “You have to tell me. Do you sing into Romeo’s dick?” I asked once we were out of the main part of the club and in the corridor leading to the bathrooms.
“One time. Hana found the video in my phone.” She rolled her eyes. “Sadly, I wasn’t drunk. I’d been singing to the baby. Apparently, I can’t sing.” She laughed. “Imight not be able to carry a note, but I made Romeo ask for an encore.”
God, I loved this girl.
There was a line in the bathroom. Once a stall opened up, we went in together. Levi bounced from foot to foot as she peeled her jeans down and hovered over the toilet.
I leaned against the door as the room spun. “I’m so fucked.”
“Ryatt?”
I focused on Levi and nodded. “I like him.”
“What about Cruz?” She flushed, and we switched positions.
“It’s complicated.” After I finished, we went to the sink to wash our hands. “I have this amazing guy, who is into the same things I am. But my heart hurts. I hate that Cruz isn’t here, and yet, I’m scared he’s going to show up. I hate that he put us in this position, but if he hadn’t, I wouldn’t have whatever this is with Ryatt. Don’t ask me if I’m okay because I’m not. I love Cruz. I’m just tired of crying over him.”
Levi’s soft smile eased the guilt and regrets burning in my belly. “While you figure out how you feel about Cruz, there’s no reason you can’t see if you feel something more for Ryatt. Just don’t lie to either one of them.”
“I haven’t lied to Ryatt. But I haven’t talked to Cruz yet. I don’t owe him an explanation. I wasn’t the one making porn with Bullet’s kittens. He did.”
“Everyone at the MC knows he didn’t fuck Jinx. He’s still an idiot. I don’t blame you for being angry. I did the same thing with Romeo. When he got with Pippa, I had to let him go. I never stopped loving him. I never will. Ifit’s meant to be for you and Cruz, you’ll find a way to be together.”
Just as Romeo and Levi obviously worked it out.
“Cruz has to be the one to fix this,” Levi said. “He’s figuring out what it’s like to be without you.”
“I still wanted to be the one who told him about me and Ryatt. Now, he knows.”
Levi linked her arm with mine at the elbow. “Sounds like we need a round of AMF’s.”
At the same time, we both said, “Adios, motherfucker.” Yeah, I’d be saying adios to any chance of staying sober.
As soon as we stepped out of the restroom, I froze. The room shifted and it had nothing to do with my buzz. Cruz leaned against the wall. I wasn’t ready for this Cruz. Wild, rough, sexy as fuck with intent in his heated glare. Oh god. I needed to see the man who broke me when he betrayed me.
Not this. Not the man who made me tremble with his touch. I’d forgotten—or rather chose not to think about—the way he affected me. Tattooed hands that had held me by the throat hung at his side. Those lips had lied to me as easily as they’d kissed me. They’d marked me, and he’d claimed I was his.
All I’d wanted was for him to be mine.
The red tinted lights of the club reflected off the tangle of hair hanging to his shoulders in soft waves. Black jeans clung to his lean hips. Black leather belt, black cut, tight black T-shirt. Black on black on black, and he looked so good.
