He thought suddenly, as he made his way back up the drive, of Lauren as she had been the night before—radiant, glowing with happiness, asking him if anyone could possible deserve to be so happy.
She could, as he had told her then. But life did not always give what one deserved.
What had he done to deserve Lily’s return? His footsteps quickened as he thought of her even then asleep,alive, in the countess’s bed.
6
The food and the tea had satisfied Lily; the deep, hot bath with perfumed soap and large, fluffy towel had soothed and lulled her; she had slept long and deep and had woken refreshed but bewildered. For several moments she was unable to remember where she was or how she had got there. She could not recall when she had last slept so well.
It did not take long for everything to come back to her, of course. She had arrived. She had reached the end of a journey that had begun she did not know how long ago when Manuel had come to her and told her she could go. Just like that—after seven months of captivity and enslavement. She had been somewhere in Spain. All she had known to do was set her face for the west, where Portugal lay, to search for him—for Neville, Major Lord Newbury, her husband. She had not even known if he was still alive. He might have died in the ambush that had wounded and made a prisoner of her. But she had begun the journey anyway. There had been nothing else to do. Her father was dead.
She had arrived, she thought, flinging back the bedcovers and stepping out onto the soft pile of the pink and green carpet. She had to hold up the hem of her nightgown in order not to trip over it. It was at least six inches too long, or she was six inches too short—probably the latter. She had arrived in spectacularly embarrassing circumstances, and distressing ones too. But she had not yet been turned away even though she had admitted the essential truth that might have caused him to dismiss her without further ado.
He might still do it, of course. But he had treated her kindly despite the fact that she had ruined his future plans. Surely he would at least give, or lend, her enough money to get her back to London. Perhaps Mrs. Harris would be good enough to help her find some employment, though she did not know what she was capable of doing.
She turned the handle of the dressing room door as gingerly as she had done earlier. But this time she was not so fortunate. There was someone else in there.
“Oh, I am sorry,” she said, closing the door quickly.
But it opened again almost immediately and the startled face of a young girl about Lily’s own age looked in at her. The girl was wearing one of those pretty mob caps the servant who had brought the food had worn.
“I beg your pardon, I am sure, my lady,” the girl said. “I just come up with your clothes, and Mrs. Ailsham told me to stay to help you dress and do your hair. She said his lordship is to come for you in half an hour, my lady, to take you to tea.”
“Oh.” Lily smiled and held out her right hand. “You are amaid. What a relief to learn that. How do you do? I am Lily.”
The maid eyed her outstretched hand askance. She did not take it but curtsied instead. “I am pleased to make your acquaintance, my lady,” she said. “I am Dolly. My mum and dad had me christened Dorothy, but everyone has always called me just Dolly. I am to be your personal maid, Mrs. Ailsham says, until your own arrives.”
“Mrs. Ailsham?” Lily stepped into the dressing room and looked about her. The bathtub had been removed, she saw.
“The housekeeper, my lady,” Dolly explained.
And then Lily saw her bag lying on the stool before the dressing table. She rushed toward it and searched anxiously inside. But all was well. Her hand closed about her locket at the bottom of the bag. She drew it out and clasped it comfortingly in her hand. She would have felt she had lost part of herself if she had lost the locket. Some other things were missing, though. She looked about the room.
“I took the liberty of taking a dress and shift out of your bag, my lady,” Dolly said. “I ironed them. They was creased bad.”
There they were laid carefully over the back of a chair, her cotton shift and the precious, pretty pale-green muslin dress Mrs. Harris had insisted on buying for her in Lisbon.
“Youironedthem?” she said, smiling warmly at the maid. “How very kind of you, Dolly. I could have done it myself. But I am glad not to have to do so. However would I find my way to the kitchen?” She laughed.
Dolly laughed too, a little uncertainly. “You are funny, my lady,” she said. “How everyone wouldlookif you was to walk into the kitchen with your dress over your arm, asking for the iron.” The idea seemed to tickle her enormously.
“Especially dressed as I am now,” Lily said, grasping her nightgown at the sides and raising it until her bare toes showed. “Tripping all over my hem.”
They laughed together like a pair of children.
“I’ll help you dress, my lady,” Dolly told her.
“Help me? Whatever for?” Lily asked her.
Dolly did not answer. She pointed to Lily’s rather battered shoes, the only pair she owned. Mrs. Harris had bought those for her too, but she had told Lily that the army was paying for them. The army, in Mrs. Harris’s opinion, owed Lily something. The army had bought her bag too and her passage on the ship that had brought them to England.
“I had them polished, my lady,” Dolly said. “But you need new ones, if you was to ask me.”
“I do not believe I need to ask,” Lily said as she dressed quickly. She was feeling curiously lighthearted. “One day soon I am going to take a step forward and my shoes are going to decide to remain where they are, and that will be the end of them.”
Lily could not remember laughing with such merriment for a long, long time—until now as she did so yet again with Dolly.
“You have a pretty figure, my lady,” Dolly said, looking critically at her when she was dressed. “Small and dainty, not all arms and legs and elbows like me. You will dress up nice when all your trunks have arrived.”
