“No! Please, let me die.”
She walks away and before long, the paramedics come in. I refuse to take meds but agree to go to the hospital.
“Call Jordan,” I shout to Nkem. “I need to say goodbye.”
Getting to the hospital, Nkem tells them how long I have been suffering. I still refuse to take any medication. The doctors urge me, and I tell them I don’t want any medication even as I scream and cry through the excruciating pain.
“Let me die, please,” I say to the doctor.
“Why?” he asks, not moved by my request.
“My heart won’t break anymore, and everyone can go back to their lives.”
“Is that why you are refusing your meds? Because you want your broken heart to stop?”
“Yes, please. Just let me go.” He pats my hand, nods and leaves.
More pain charges through me. I scream out even as my throat hurts from all the hours of pain and cries. “MAK, please take your meds!” Jordan pleads.
“No, just let me go.” I take his hand. “Daniel broke up with me and I do not wish to be here anymore.” I mumble through pain.
“I need you here, MAK. Please, take the meds,” he pleads. I see tears in his eyes.
“MAK, please!” I hear Andrea and Nkem as well.
“No, I called you so I could say goodbye.” His frown is immediate.
“MAK, please stay for me.” I shake my head and fight the excruciating pain that’s passing through my body
The doctor returns. “This meds will help knock you out,” he says.
I nod, letting him inject me with the meds, holding Jordan’s hands.
“She will sleep for a while,” I hear the doctor say.
Chapter 53
Daniel
I drove off in anger, not sure how I made it to my place, but I did and I’m raging inside. I take the bottle of whisky and start gulping it, I need something to numb my pain. How could she have let him touch her. I look at the pictures again and rage fills me as I toss my phone and knock the glass and everything off the table, but the pain doesn’t subside, images of him having sex with her plays vividly in my mind, how could this have happened. I trusted her and she did this. I sit on the chair and can’t help but scream.
I drink more but the pain doesn’t go away.
Are you done with her?
Am I? Can I ever be done with her? I can’t imagine not talking to her or not sleeping next to her? She’s, my anchor. I love her, I’m in love with her.
Then forgive her.The words are so loud in my head, they are impossible to ignore.
I drink more, till the bottle is empty and I can’t stand and lay on my sofa. I see a small stain of the night I made love to her onthis sofa. The thought of Teni doing the same shot pain through me.
Forgive her or you must let her go.
I can’t let her go.
Then forgive her. I let out a painful groan. My whole being shudders at the pain I released.
I know I need to forgive her but I’m going to mess Teni up big time.
