“Good. Do you need anything?” I’m at a loss. I have no idea what to do here.
“No. I’m just going to rest.” She smiles again.
“I’ll be right here,” I confirm to her. I need her to know that I’m not leaving.Ever.
“You don’t have to stay with me. I’m fine now.” Her voice is almost convincing.
“You are not fine and I’m staying with you.”
Before she can reply, her phone beeps.
“That’s probably Jordan checking on me. I sent a SOS signal when my crisis started. Can you press the green button please?”
I do as she requested.
“What’s that?” I ask about the four colored buttons that popped up after pushing the green button.
“Green means meds are working, yellow means still in crisis, I might need help getting to the hospital, Red means call an ambulance and Blue means I need support.”
“You and Jordan share that?” I ask
“Yes, with a few other friends,” she says.
“Can you add me to that?”
“No need to worry yourself.” She replies brushing off my request
“I’ll ask Jordan to add me, if you don’t add me. I need to know when you are in crisis.”
“Can we talk about it later?”
“Yes, but you are going to add me.”
“Tell me about your trip.”Sure, deflecting is the fucking answer.
“Boring is what my trip was. I missed you, so I came back soon as I was done.”
“I missed you too.”
I truly smile for the first time since I walked in here. I get up and start to remove my clothes.
“What are you doing?”
“Getting in bed next to you” I say.
“You don’t like this mattress.”
“Doesn’t matter, neither of us is sleeping alone,” I respond. Not sure why she thinks, I would leave her and sleep in another bed.
“We can go to your bed,” she says.
I turn a questioning look to her.
“You don’t want me to touch you and I’m not going to let you walk. I don’t see how we are getting to another bed.”
“Meds are working; you can carry me to your bed.”
“Are you sure?”
