“Him a mi father?” I turn to her and she nods while crying.
“It was before I met Owayne, I- I was with him,” she explains. “First.”
“So yah whore?!” I walk up to her and she slaps me across my face. “Yah juggle two bredda!?” I continue, regardless of the stinging feeling on my cheek.
I know my words must’ve hurt her but I’ll have to live with this. So tell me which one hurt more?
The fact that mi call her a whore or the fact that I’ve been calling my uncle, my dad the whole time and my father my uncle. And what makes this situation worst is the fact that, my younger siblings are my cousins too.
And I’ll have to live with this…
“Mi nuh care wah yuh have fi say, you could a stop the relationship with Owayne and think bout us. Just imagine mi sister and mi bredda dem a mi cousin and mi affi go live with that,” I start crying.
“F—” I curse loudly and connect my fist in the wall, constantly until it starts bleeding.
“Junior, Stop!” She begs and I glare at her. “P-please J-Junior.”
“Am I really?” I smile, my face soaked with tears as a youth weh barely show emotions.
“Am I really what?” She blinks.
“A Junior,” I clench my fist and walk closer to her.
“You see as long as you live just avoid me like mi a wah deadly disease. A 3 youth alone you have Nicki, forget me andyou Orion a’ only a daughta yuh have, forget me too. Mi nav no mother and mi nav no father, a mi woman alone mi have!” my voice shakes the room before I slam the door behind me.
PRESENT
NICKOI
I can’t help it but wonder who my father is. Is it Orion or is it Owayne? I curse, hitting the steering wheel. “Foolishness this dawg.” I’m breathing heavily.
“After mi lef Dacosta farm and mi go there fi mi youth dem mi find mommy with him enuh,” I admit and he looks at me surprised. “Dem say a never a regular thing, them just have feelings fi each other,” I add.
He shakes his head. Junior was always distant with mommy and I always wondered why… now I’m sure, and it’s f’ed up.
“You hate har?” I ask him.
“Who? Nicki?” his tone unreadable.
I nod.
“No,” he answers. “Mi forgive her and mi talk to her, mi just avoid her.”
I breathe. “Mi forgive her too cause me understand the situation.”
He sighs.
“Jah Jah,” I breathe, thinking about everything and it’s making me angrier. “So, we are half brothers half cousin,” I say to myself, disgusted.
“Bredda nuh meds it,” Junior says equally disgusted. “Nor say it.” I nod and stay silent, thinking about Skye. She’s Junior’s sister.
Jah Jah God.
“You tell Zara bout wah yuh did see?”
“No..” I reply.
“Why?” He questions.
