“It’s beautiful.” I said softly.
“She loves this place; it’s her pride and joy. Her and my father’s relationship to me, is more of a partnership. Other people don’t understand it…me and Dreu stopped trying to understand it. They see other people, have separate rooms…” His thick brows bunched together.
“Is that why you said you never had a girlfriend?” I asked curiously.
“I don’t use my parents as an excuse. I think they’re part of the reason why I never got into any serious relationships. They’ve kept me busy over the years, and I fell in love with pleasing them. Their approval of every aspect of my life grew addicting. I love what I do, but sometimes mother makes me feel like it’s never enough. Like the whole marriage thing is some shit that her and my father were forced into. They call it sacrifice, and now they claim to be so happy. Yet, they have an understandingin their marriage that allows them to share their hearts, minds, and bodies with other people.” He shook his head.
“So, they was in a arranged marriage?” I placed my hand on top of his and gently stroked it.
“Yeah, but they grew up as best friends. That part shows in their day-to-day life. I never seen them argue like that either. My father respects my mother and they both move as one when it comes to business and personal life with raising me and Dreu. None of their partners ever stepped out of line. There’s never been fighting or me seeing my mother or father with a broken heart. When they find themselves wanting each other on an intimate level that’s when they sleep together in their master suite designed for the both of them.”
This was Bleu opening up about his family. Everything that he confessed was the total opposite of how social media viewed the Langston’s. People praised Bleu’s mom and even referred to his parents as relationship goals. I would have never guessed that his parents were in an open relationship.
“So, what’s this between us? I appreciate the gifts and you being nice and caring towards me…I just don’t want to catch feelings and then one day you decide you want something new…I’m not trying to get deeply involved with you Bleu and then you offer me an open relationship.” I said honestly speaking from the heart.
“Oh, so you like me enough to think of our future?” He smirked and squeezed my thigh.
My entire body heated up, I looked away from him and sighed.
“I don’t know.”
“You do know, you just feel like it’s too soon to say it.”
He released my thigh and gently grabbed the bottom of my chin, forcing me to look over at him.
“I don’t want what my parents have. I never went searching for a serious relationship with a woman because none of them gave me this feeling that I get and have when talking or being around you. The first night with you, I denied already knowing that I was going to be addicted to you. I ignored knowing that I would give you anything and everything to keep you smiling. I I ignored how I knew that I would want you more than once and that it wasn’t just sex. When I found out about you having a daughter, I thought that would be enough to turn me away from you…” He laughed lightly.
“Until I found myself driving to your parent’s house with all your gifts pissed off that you creeped away from me early morning. The first person that answered the door was your father and Princess. I knew she was yours right away. The first name that came to mind was Princess, it might sound soft as hell, but she melted my heart offering me cookies.” He shook his head and smiled.
My heart rate accelerated, the more he talked the harder I fell face first for him.
“I run a strict diet, and Princess had me tearing them damn cookies up.” He continued.
“My dad knows how to bake good, and my mom cooks good. She always messes up desert, but my dad mastered it from my grandparents.” I smiled.
Like Lo Lo, I was a daddy’s girl and was proud to be one. My dad made sure I got whatever my heart desired. My mom wouldstep in and stop him from giving me whatever but somehow, he always found a way even if it hurt his pockets.
“This is crazy, I’m not expecting a three-sixty with you because you’ve been whatever way before me. You appear perfect as hell.” I released a breath that I didn’t realize I was holding after speaking.
“Sex is out of this world… it’s easy to talk to you, like I feel so comfortable in your presence. They I keep asking myself what do you want from me?”
“What I want from you is free... Let me be a man, your softness is sexy as hell to me. I want you to be you, and then hopefully you can become my first and last girlfriend that ends up becoming my wife.”
He leaned closer, his gaze unwavering.
“I want honesty. I want to know the real you, not just the version you think I’m looking for. I want to share everything, good and bad, then see where it takes us. I want to build something that’s ours, not just what others expect.”
His words hung in the air, serious and vulnerable at the same time. I found myself absorbing every word, feeling a warmth spread through me that I couldn't explain. The vulnerability in his voice matched the openness I was craving but never dared to ask for. All the walls I built over the years seemed to crumble as I realized that this was the kind of connection I secretly wished for, raw, genuine, unfiltered.
Nineteen
BLEU
My weekwith Truly was almost over, I started to dread it coming to an end. Although there would be plenty more times to have her in my home, I didn’t want to see her leave. There was something about her that stuck to me, and it would still stick even when she wasn’t there.
It was in the way my house felt different now. Lighter. Like her energy had soaked into the walls and refused to leave. She made herbal teas to test out new combinations, the faint scent of it lingered for days. It was a scent that I welcomed since it calmed me.
I also liked how she made herself at home and was no longer shy or timid around me. She walked around barefoot across my floors, hummed softly while cooking in the kitchen. In a short time, I learned that Truly loved to sing her heart out in the shower. She’d stay in for so long in the mornings and nights that I would join her just to be close and see her naked wet body.
