A guy from the drama department comes by with the bill, and I hand him my platinum card as if I were anteing up the tab at a restaurant.
Mom shifts in her seat as if she was sitting on a bed of tacks, as does Meg, and now there’s a shitload of silence in our midst because I’ve just managed to stun them both to hell, myself included.
“Thank you, sir,” says the guy dressed as a court jester, or an elf, or whatever caped crusader his tights are representing today. I take a breath and cut a quick glance over to my mother as he takes off with three thousand dollars of my hard-earned money.
My parents are of the school of thought that it’s entirely up to their offspring to generate their own brand of wealth, and, lucky for me, because I’ve managed to do just that, thanks to some smart moves in the market. And now that I’m working for my father’s advertising division, I’m amassing quite a nice nest egg at record pace. He’s fine with me as a grunt worker, so long as I don’t own the place one day.
Music filters in through the speakers, and the lights dim as couples migrate over to the dance floor.
Mom leans in. “It’s always a nice philanthropic effort to make a donation.” Her eyes swirl like pinwheels. “Don’t feel like you need to take it any further. Half the people that bid will only take it so far. It’s the thought that counts.” She gives a little wink, but I can see the budding agitation that’s making her sway. I used to think it was the farthest thing from the truth when Laney suggested my mother didn’t care for her, but it’s little things like this that only affirm her theory.
Meg leans in until our shoulders touch. “I’ve got my dancing shoes on. They’re sure aching to get out there.” She moves in another inch, hoping I’ll put her feet out of their misery.
Meg. I shake my head. She’s been my mother’s shadow for the past few years while working as her personal assistant, but it’s pretty clear I’m the one she’s trying to assist, or, more to the point, my dick. Although she’s already firmly stated she’s waiting for her wedding night, and if she thinks I’m going to be the groom, she’s got a whole lifetime of waiting to do because no matter what happens, no matter how desperately my balls plead for satisfaction, I’m not going there, ever.
Once Laney left, I quickly acclimated to the swollen hand blues, and, if need be, that’s the way I’ll continue to satisfy myself until I’m dead and buried. They’ll find my skeletal hand right over my long-evaporated crotch.
I’ve only ever wanted Laney for as long as I can remember, and now that I have her for the night, I’m not sure what to do. Technically I’d be breaking my promise to “leave her the hell alone,” but a cash transaction just took place for her time and attention, and I’m half-tempted to show her the receipt.
The cast moves through the crowd, mingling, laughing—breaking into spontaneous song as they grind past the patrons. Laney and Bing stick together as they circulate table-to-table, thanking everyone for coming out like they were guests at their wedding. My gut tightens just watching the way his hand touches her lower back like it belongs there.
Fucking Bing.
I pull my cheek back, pissed just witnessing the spectacle.
He twirls her to the table next to ours, and she manages to keep her back to me at all times. Laney has turned avoiding me into an art form. She could open up shop helping ex-girlfriends everywhere with effective techniques to steer clear of their ex’s.
“You want to dance?” Meg strokes my hand and I rise out of my seat, half-afraid Laney will see her pawing at me. I’m equally afraid Laney and Bing will visit our table next, and she’ll look through me like a ghost—hate me for sitting right next to the very girl she claims I destroyed our relationship over. It couldn’t be further from the truth—ironic because I’ve always felt the truth would eventually come out and save the day, but I had no idea that it was capable of ebbing its way down the tree trunk of life slow as frozen tears.
Meg latches onto my elbow and tries pushing me toward the dance floor.
“No thanks,” I bark, stern as shit. The last person on earth I’d dance with is Meg. It was the drama she caused that finally blew my relationship with Laney to bits. I untangle her limb from mine before she causes another unwarranted tragedy and head for the door.
Laney spins around just as I’m about to traverse an obstacle of seated gala patrons, and her chest lands soft against mine.
Holy shit.
Her beautiful face looks up at me, her breath blows over my skin as she pants. I’d like to think she was panting for me, from the excitement of being near me for the first time in months, but, in truth, she’s been lit up like a pumpkin all night busy entertaining the masses, and that’s always exhilarated her to the point of exhaustion.
Neither one of us moves, neither one of us says anything.
Her eyes key into mine, wide with anticipation, and I hold her gaze, daring her to move, to get the hell away from me like we both know she wants to.
Bing places his hand over her shoulder. “Cool. You got your date. Look, I’ve got a heated little slut waiting for me in the corner. She brought the big bucks, so I’d better head over and let her handle the merch.” He socks me in the arm. “Don’t do anything I wouldn’t do.” He glances down at Laney’s chest. “If you’re lucky, she’ll let you sink your face in that hillside.” He shoots me with his fingers before taking off.
Laney tries to take a step back, but I move right along with her and our bodies remain locked at the chest.
Truthfully I half-expected her to throw out some sarcastic comeback regarding her “hillside” like,you won’t be that lucky, oryou’ll never climb this terrain again,and the fact she’s chosen to remain silent only goes to show how virally pissed she still is.
I press my gaze into hers. “You want to dance?” There. Rules one and two have effectively been broken. Not only am I near her, but I’m speaking to her, touching her with my body in all the right places.
The music shifts to a Christmas carol with a rhythm far too quick to require our hips to bump and grind. Just my luck.
From the corner of my eye, I catch Roxy and Bryson’s girlfriend, Baya, hedging their way over. If my sister knows what’s good for her, she’ll keep a safe distance. But as much as I’d like to believe I’ve got this handled, deep down I know Laney is about to flutter away, elusive as a butterfly, and I’ll never have the chance to be near her again.
Laney’s lids grow heavy as she skirts the table with a quick glance. You can feel the tension spewing from my mother, from Meg, and now all I want to do is get Laney the hell out of here, so I can protect her. In no way do I want anyone making her feel like crap, for sure I don’t want to see anyone hurt her.
“You want to go to my place?” I can hardly believe I had the balls to make the offer. I moved just a week after Laney decided she wanted to break things off. It wasn’t some reactionary situation, my lease was up and I had already secured the penthouse. Laney was going to see it as soon as I got the key, but she was long out of my life by then. And without her in it, the penthouse has been the loneliest place I’ve ever lived.
