Which put more pressure on Briar. He spent his day crafting protection charms to hand out among the various Orders. Not that they’d do much good, considering what happened to my necklace, but some protection was better than none at all.
With the weight of the world on his shoulders, Maddox took me in his arms after dinner and carried me upstairs without a word. Between kisses, he laid me on the bed and stripped off my clothes, caressing every inch of my skin.
“You don’t have to keep it all in, big guy,” I said, peering up at him. “Tell me what’s bothering you.”
“Speaking of it will change nothing.” He brushed his thumb over my bottom lip, blue eyes as deep as the sea. The depths unreachable. “I’m only…”
“You’re only what?”
“Afraid,” he whispered, dropping his face to my neck. “I feel like I’m going to lose you, sweetheart.”
An ache clawed at my chest. “None of us knows what will happen. But I’ll do all I can to not be a damsel in distress.” I lightly poked his cheek. “I’ll be the hero and save all of you.”
That made him smile. The hard swallow in his throat told me those worries still had him in a tight grip though. I wrapped my arms around him and kissed the spot beneath his ear. His skin smelled of warm spice and leather, even after his bath. A smell unique to him.
Then, as if a man possessed, his mouth crashed to mine. His kisses deepened. He palmed my chest before dipping down and taking hold of my cock. I lifted my hips and tipped my head back, an opening he seized. He pushed his face against my neck and grazed his teeth across my Adam’s apple.
Maddox took no mercy on me. Once I was prepped and ready to go, he thrust in deep. I cried out and dug my nails into his back before having that cry silenced with another hard kiss.
The bed creaked as he pumped his hips back and forth, fucking me like he hadn’t in a long time. It told me he was worried. That he was barely holding himself together and didn’t know how to process that feeling. As his kisses softened, paired with a small sound in his throat, it also said he loved me.
“I’m right here.” I held him tighter.
“You’re not allowed to be anywhere else.” He cradled my head with one hand, bracing himself on the mattress with the other.
A light sound at the door drew our attention.
Briar entered the room, shut the door, and shed his clothes. None of us spoke as he joined us on the bed, kissing the top of Maddox’s shoulder as our captain pumped into me. He then moved his lips to mine, capturing them for a scorching kiss. He smoothed his hand down my chest and took hold of my cock.
“Fuck.” I arched my back and moaned. The feel of his hand, combined with Maddox hitting my sweet spot, had my thighs quaking. A quake that warned of an imminent eruption when Briar licked down my ribs and took me into his warm mouth.
I came quickly. Something that should’ve embarrassed me, but the triumphant gleam in both their eyes said they loved having that effect on me. As my body started to calm, Briar pulled off and pecked featherlight kisses to my lower belly.
“I’ve only just begun, and you’re already a mess beneath me.” Maddox’s deep tone was paired with a sexy curve of his mouth. “What am I to do with you now?”
Briar lightly laughed.
An idea struck. More than an idea; a desire I’d had for a while and couldn’t hold back any longer.
“I can think of one thing,” I told him. “But you wouldn’t be doing it to me.”
That stumped my captain. Stumped Briar too. Both gave me quizzical stares. Placing a hand on Maddox’s muscled chest, I gently pushed against him and sat up. He understood my intention and rolled to his back, still perplexed.
“You see…” I straddled his hips and took him back inside me, descending slowly. His lips parted. “As much as I love your cock inside me—big and pulsing—there’s something else I’ve wanted.”
“Tell me,” he said, breaths quickening as I continued to ride him. “Anything you want is yours.”
“Anything?” I peered over at Briar and grabbed his hand, pulling him closer. “Then, I want to watch the two of you fuck.”
“Pardon?” Briar choked out, quickly adjusting his glasses. He still wore them, which I loved. A man in glasses totally did it for me. “You wish for us to…”
“Fuck,” I said with a nod. “Make love. Screw. Do the nasty. Knock boots. Whatever you wanna call it.” After another glide up and down Maddox’s hard cock, getting one last feel of him, I slid off his lap.
He made a gruff noise at the loss of contact and fisted the sheet beneath him. His swollen tip glistened. “But Briar and I have never…”
“I know.” I smiled down at him and brushed aside the hair on his damp brow. “I also know why you haven’t. Both of you think it would upset me, right? Well, I’m telling you right now that it won’t.”
“That’s not the only reason,” Briar said. “We’ve discussed it before. The desire certainly exists between us, but we didn’t wish to do it without you with us.”
