CC’s lips came crashing down on mine. “I want you to use it on yourself. Show me how you get yourself off.”
I whimpered as he pushed me over on the bed. I stared up into his eyes as the thought of him watching me had me nearly blowing my load. He brought his mouth against my ear.
“I want to watch you fuck yourself, princess. I want to see how you come apart when no one is watching, hear the sounds you make, and I want to jerk off while you do it.”
“I can do that.” I traced his jaw with the tips of my fingers, my hand shaking as I touched him. “I’d do anything for you. You don’t even have to ask.”
He smiled at me. “Me, too, princess.” He pressed a kiss against my lips before he moved and dropped onto his back.
“Oh, is that code for go get the dildo?” I teased before I scrambled off the bed.
His hand smacked my backside playfully. I giggled as I went over to the dresser and opened the drawer, but when I looked over my shoulder, the sight of CC spread out on my bed had me do a double take. He was watching me, his eyes wide and heavily lidded. His cock hard and heavy between his legs. I could watch him all day.
“Ezra.” CC smirked at me. “Are you going to stand there staring at me like I’m breakfast, or are you going to do something about it?”
I placed a hand on my hip. “I’m tempted to just watch you, baby. I mean, you are a snack.” But then the thought of CC coming undone while I got myself off had me digging through the drawer for the toy and some lube before I jumped back on the bed. “I want you to prep me.”
“Fuck yeah.” He got up onto his knees before that look came back onto his face.
“Carson.” I patted the mattress, and he sat down. I immediately straddled his lap. “Can I ask you a question? You don’t have to answer it if you don’t want to.”
CC smiled at me. “I know what you’re going to ask me, Ez.” He wrapped his hand around both of our cocks and tugged lightly, causing us both to groan. “I’ve slept with three men.”
“Does that include me?”
“Yes, it does.”
I nodded. “Does that include Holt?”
“What? No. I never slept with Holt. We kissed, that was it.” CC rolled his eyes. “I didn’t sleep with him or Noel. I don’t shit where I eat.”
I kissed his nose. “But you would have slept with Holt.” When he hesitated, my brows dipped. “You really liked him, didn’t you? More than you wanted to admit to me, Watts, even Holt.”
“I just...I told you. I wanted you, Ez. Holt reminded me of you, and I thought, maybe... Ah, fuck.” CC dropped his chin. “Yes, I would have slept with him.”
I tucked a finger under his chin, bringing his gaze back to mine. “I love you, Carson. You have nothing to be ashamed of, baby. I wish things were different. Maybe if I had kissed you a couple years earlier, or if I wasn’t such a whore—”
“You’re not a whore,” CC growled. “Don’t you ever say that about yourself. Did Ty say that to you?”
I dropped my gaze. “I don’t want to talk about Ty.”
“Ezra, did he?” CC whispered. “Listen to me, princess. Just because you like sex, because you like to explore your sexuality, the things you enjoy, that doesn’t make you a whore. I’m sorry if I ever made you feel that way. And Ty is a fucking asshole who couldn’t even show the world he had you. You’re mine now. You’re mine always, and I will spend the rest of my life showing you just how much you mean to me.”
I kissed him, my mouth covering his, my arms wrapping around his neck, and my hands playing with the hairs on the nape of his neck. My heart slammed against my chest while my stomach swooped and filled with butterflies. No one had ever made me feel as special or important as CC did. No one had ever told me I was beautiful, sexy, or wanted to show me off like he had.
“I love you, Ezra,” CC murmured. “Nothing is ever going to change that. Not now or ever.”
I smiled as I met his dark orbs. “I love you, too.”
