“Take,” he whispers, urging me to close the gap between us.
So I do.
Slowly, I explore his mouth, the way our tongues tangle, the way he kisses with his whole self. Kissing Taylor isn’tjusta kiss. It’s a religious experience, a call to arms, a declaration of humanity’s ability to love, persevere, and survive. And I never want it to end.
Until he starts grinding his cock into me.
Not wanting to send his health in the wrong direction, I pull away from him, leading him toward the bed.
Two hours later, I’m hoarse from talking so much. I don’t think I’ve said this many words in the last two years combined.
Tay’s still naked, and I gave in, letting him strip me down to my boxers. But those had to stay on because he wouldn’t stop touching my dick, and he’s not supposed to be getting all worked up.
Now, his fingers are combing through my chest hair as he slowly rolls his hips, dragging his cock along my thigh.
“Behave,” I warn, reaching down to pinch his ass cheek, the gesture feeling oddly natural.
“But it’s sohard,” he whines, and I know he’s not talking about behaving.
I place my hand on his hip to still his movements and he immediately tries to move it lower. “Can you just hold me? I’ll try to be still. Justplease, at least put your hands on me.”
“Iamholding you,” I point out even as I let him guide my hand where he wants it.
“I mean, hold mehere.” He wraps my hand around his balls and lets out a sigh.
They’re warm and heavy in my hand, and they’re different from my own—not that I spend much time fondling my balls, but a man knows his own sac pretty well.
I expected this to feel a lot weirder than it does.
But here I am, mesmerized like a kid watching the fireworks show at Disney.I fucking love fireworks.
I roll them gently in my hand. Tug on them. Give them a little squeeze.
“If you were planning on telling me you’re not going to make me come, you can fuck right off with that.” Taylor’s voice is strained, but it’s also the strongest I’ve heard it since the accident.
“What if it sends you backwards and you can’t leave on Monday?” I ask as the diabolically selfish thought occurs to me.Maybe I can keep him here with orgasms. I’ll make him so dizzy from coming, he won’t even remember he’s supposed to leave me.
“I won’t be going anywhere but six feet underground if you don’t get me off. My heart rate is already climbing, dumping adrenaline into my system. You might as well give me a release, Knox. I’m going to pay for it either way now.”
Well, in that case…
“Can I…try something?” I ask with a little hesitation, trying my hardest to push thoughts of his imminent departure out of my mind.
“You can literally do any-fucking-thing to me that you want,” he pants.
I’ve never held another man’s dick, let alone put one in my mouth. But unraveling him like this makes me want to try something new. Thelasttime I tried something new, it landedme in Taylor’s orbit, so maybe the guys were right. Change is necessary for growth.
I slide out of his arms.
“Where are you going?” He panics until I move between his legs and bring my eyes up to meet his. “Oh, holy fucking shit. You really don’t have to do this if you’re not ready.”
So much for not spiking his heart rate.
“Only one way to find out,” I tell him, pretty sure I want to do this. “I’m sorry if I’m not good at it, but I?—”
“Please shut up and put my dick in your mouth. It’s already the best blowjob I’ve ever had.”
I snort because I know he’s lying, but I appreciate his enthusiasm anyway.
