Ravi
It doesn’t. I feel the same way
I think about you all the time, Elle. I think about what it would be like to actually get to see you in person, to touch you
Elle
I had a dream about kissing you
Ravi
Really?
Elle
Yes. I think about you all the time, too
Ravi leans back, resting one hand next to him on the dresser, his heart beating wildly. It’s a little thrilling to know that she aches for him in some semblance of the way he does for her. It’s also painful knowing all the reasons it can’t work, and how many of them are on his end. But he can’t be any more selfish than he already has been.
Another message from Elle:Do you like them? The person you kissed
A week ago, he’d have said no instantly. It’s a little more complicated than that now. Despite everything, he wants to be fair to Yael, too.
Ravi
Not the way I like you
Elle
I haven’t liked anyone the way I like you in a very long time
Ravi
What do we do about this?
I can’t date anyone right now with Mia and Suresh, especially long distance
Elle
I can’t do distance, either. I’m not emotionally equipped to handle it, and I don’t want you to get me at my worst
I’d take you at your worst, he thinks,if I didn’t know my attention would always belong elsewhere.
Ravi
It wasn’t fair of me to let it get this far
Elle
This is as much my doing as yours
I know I shouldn’t be thinking about it right now, but I really want this Renegade deal, and I really want you to be a part of it.
Ravi
I want that too
Maybe we shouldn’t be doing this
