Another noise—a muffled moan this time—confirmed my suspicions: somebody was up there with him, having sex.
Jealousy curled through me, but I didn’t know who I was jealous of.
I hadn’t had sex in several years, so being jealous of Xavier made the most sense. But part of me was jealous of whomever he was with since I would have been equally happy being on the receiving end of his knot.
My cock hardened, and I turned on my side in an attempt to ignore it.
Then another sound filtered down.
“Xavier!”
That was Micah’s voice.
God, Xavier was up there fucking Micah.
Ice wrapped itself around my heart, and tears stung my eyes.
Just when I’d started to feel like a part of the group, the two of them were hooking up. Were they casual, or serious? How long until they decided to move out together and start a family?
How much time before Crow and Terry would go their own ways?
How long until I was alone again?
My erection died, and I grabbed a throw pillow and held it over my ear.
I didn’t need to listen. For now, I’d pretend it was a one-time thing. Micah had told me he had a high sex drive. And really, it was none of my business.
However, even as I drifted off to sleep, the hurt clung to me.
∞∞∞
I stood at the kitchen counter—chopping potatoes—when a hand slid around the small of my back and stopped at my waist.
“What’s on the menu for tonight?” Xavier asked, resting his chin on my shoulder.
I stiffened at the touch. It felt good, but my mind couldn’t help but go back to what I’d heard a few nights prior.
“Sorry,” he said, lifting his chin. “Is this ok?”
I swallowed, then nodded. “It’s fine.”
“Good,” he said, then he kissed the side of my neck before resting his chin on my shoulder again.
Down boy,I ordered my cock as Xavier’s cologne washed over me.He’s probably just in a touchy-feely mood, and it’s not personal.
“What are you cooking today?” he asked as I resumed chopping potatoes. “You’re getting a later start than normal.”
“Japanese-style curry and rice,” I replied.
“I don’t think I’ve ever had that.”
“It’s thick and hearty. It should keep you full all through your show tonight.”
I felt the smile on his lips as he kissed my neck again. Why was he doing that? It felt wonderful, but it was new.
He shifted so both arms were wrapped around me. “Do you need any help?”
Why couldn’t I have this forever? Why did he have to hook up with Micah?
